Playing With Fire

Do your monsters sometimes stage a take-over, hurting you and others? If your monsters could help you live more of the life you want to live, would you get to know them, and invite them in? What about sharing them with a trusted partner in a thoughtful, conscious process?Ken did, and it made him cry, right here in the podcast - tears of relief for the possibility of realizing potential. We're talking about letting in our darker parts, and how much our lives can expand when we do.In this episode, we talk about:— What shadow work actually is and why Carl Jung's metaphor is so powerful yet simple— How our "monsters" operate autonomously when we don't acknowledge them— The relief that comes from finally recognizing and taking responsibility for our shadow aspects— Why personifying our shadow material can make it easier to work with— How kink and shadow work can intertwine as psychological practices— The difference between engaging with the "regalia" of kink versus the psychological depth— Why creating psychological safety is essential before doing shadow work with a partner— How projection reveals our shadow material in relationships— The importance of accepting enjoyment of shadow aspects without endorsing harmful behaviors— Why shadow work is a lifelong spiral rather than a circle we keep traveling— Ways to engage with your shadow independently if your partner isn't interested in this workResources mentioned in this episode:— Joli's ⁠Sexual Shadow Masterclass⁠— ⁠The Avett Brothers - The Perfect Space⁠— Suzanne Vega - Don't Uncork What You Can't ContainJOIN The Year Of Opening® community for a full year of learning & support. Registration is open now at ⁠⁠www.TheYearOfOpening.com⁠⁠Learn the 5 secrets to open your relationship the smart wayAre you ready to open your relationship happily? Find out at www.JoliQuiz.comGet the answers you want to create the open relationship of your dreams! Sign up for an Ask Me Anything hereMusic: Dance of Felt by ⁠Blue Dot Sessions

A lot of personal growth work is about recognizing and focusing on taking responsibility and changing what we can change in our lives. But sometimes you’re stuck. Stuck and bewildered by how this shit keeps happening. Those same old cyclical situations… a heated argument with a romantic partner, a recurring issue at work, a really challenging family dynamic… where we feel like we have no control. All those tools and practices go out the window and it feels like the situation is just happening at us.These challenges are the perfect place to start practicing shadow work—the process of becoming aware of what you’ve suppressed, hated, and denied about yourself. Sound a little scary? Don’t worry, shadow work does not mean embracing and enacting all the mean parts of yourself. In other words, doing this work doesn’t mean becoming an asshole.There are many ways to do shadow work, but today we’re focusing on a method created by Carolyn Lovewell called Existential Kink. Existential Kink involves loving, accepting, and owning the ‘guilty pleasure’ we get from the shadowy aspects of our subconscious, and we’re walking you through the whole process.In this episode, we’re breaking down:— What the shadow is— What it means to do shadow work— How Jungian and depth psychology define and approach the shadow— Examples of how and why people repress and deny aspects of themselves— Why unexamined shadow aspects of ourselves often lead to projections— How embracing and recollecting repressed aspects of ourselves can be powerfully transformative for your personal growth and relationships— Why shadow work does not mean embracing and enacting evil/mean aspects of ourselves (AKA becoming an asshole)— The theory behind and process of Existential Kink— The importance of community and support while doing depth psychological workResources mentioned in this episode:— My Individuation Alchemy program— Carolyn Lovewell’s book, work, and programs— Lindsay Braman’s Emotion Sensation Feelings WheelJOIN The Year Of Opening® community for a full year of learning & support. Registration is open now at ⁠⁠www.TheYearOfOpening.com⁠⁠Learn the 5 secrets to open your relationship the smart wayAre you ready to open your relationship happily? Find out at www.JoliQuiz.comGet the answers you want to create the open relationship of your dreams! Sign up for an Ask Me Anything hereMusic: Dance of Felt by ⁠Blue Dot Sessions

Radical relating isn't just about who you're dating—it's about dismantling systems of power and creating community. In this episode, we welcome Mel Cassidy, somatic relationship coach and author of "Radical Relating: A Queer and Polyamory-Informed Guide to Love Beyond the Myth of Monogamy."Mel shares their journey from blogger to coach to author, and how their work challenges the foundations of mono-normativity. We explore how white supremacy culture, colonization, and Christianity have shaped our understanding of relationships, and how we can break free from these restrictive patterns to create more authentic connections.This conversation goes far beyond the typical focus on sex in non-monogamy discussions. Instead, we dive into how resource sharing, conflict resolution, and community building can help us create more liberatory forms of love—whether we're in monogamous relationships, polyamorous networks, or anywhere in between.In this episode, we talk about:— How white supremacy culture, colonization, and Christianity have shaped monogamy as the default relationship structure— The concept of "anarcule" as a way to understand relationships beyond sexual connections— Why perfectionism in relationships is a harmful aspect of mono-normativity that prevents authentic communication— How the nuclear family was designed as a political tool to counter feminism and socialism— Ways to practice resource sharing even if you're not interested in having multiple romantic partners— The importance of decentering sex in our understanding of relationships and asking "what does sex mean to you?"— Why Google calendars might actually hide conflict rather than resolve scheduling issues— Practical approaches to conflict resolution, starting with low-stakes issues to build capacity— How our nervous systems "time travel" during conflict, bringing up old wounds and patterns— The value of understanding who you become during conflict and how to work with different conflict stylesResources mentioned in this episode:— Mel Cassidy's new book: Radical Relating: A Queer and Polyamory-Informed Guide to Love Beyond the Myth of MonogamyJOIN The Year Of Opening® community for a full year of learning & support. Registration is open now at ⁠⁠www.TheYearOfOpening.com⁠⁠Learn the 5 secrets to open your relationship the smart wayAre you ready to open your relationship happily? Find out at www.JoliQuiz.comGet the answers you want to create the open relationship of your dreams! Sign up for an Ask Me Anything hereMusic: Dance of Felt by ⁠Blue Dot Sessions

Long-distance relationships can feel like a never-ending uphill climb. When there are miles between you and your partner, it's easy to fall into patterns that make connecting feel more like a chore than a choice. Whether you're separated by a two-hour drive or multiple time zones, the question eventually surfaces: "How do we keep going without it feeling like endless work?"We understand this struggle deeply. The fatigue that comes with maintaining connection across distance is real and valid. But what if the solution isn't about working harder, but about reimagining what your relationship is actually for? What if the distance itself offers unique opportunities that proximity never could?In this episode, we talk about:— The importance of clarifying the purpose of your relationship and how this purpose might shift over time— Why mono-normative expectations can create unnecessary pressure in long-distance relationships— How to design relationship rituals that create meaning without becoming another obligation— The value of regularly revisiting and refreshing your relationship agreements— Understanding the unique grief that comes with long-distance relating and how to honor it— Finding the "golden shadows" of distance—the unexpected benefits that proximity doesn't offer— Why endurance alone isn't enough to sustain connection, and how meaning-making transforms the experience— The danger of idealizing proximity and forgetting the challenges that come with day-to-day relating— Creating structure that allows for both stability and novelty in your connection— Practical ways to inject fresh energy and imagination into long-distance relationshipsResources mentioned in this episode:— Francis Weller's work on griefJOIN The Year Of Opening® community for a full year of learning & support. Registration is open now at ⁠⁠www.TheYearOfOpening.com⁠⁠Learn the 5 secrets to open your relationship the smart wayAre you ready to open your relationship happily? Find out at www.JoliQuiz.comGet the answers you want to create the open relationship of your dreams! Sign up for an Ask Me Anything hereMusic: Dance of Felt by ⁠Blue Dot Sessions

We live in a culture where monogamy isn't just presented as one way to have relationships—it's positioned as the only natural, healthy, and moral way to relate. This assumption runs so deep that most of us never even question it. But what happens when we start examining these unspoken rules that shape our relationships?Mono-normativity affects all of us, whether we're monogamous or not. Bringing these unconscious assumptions into the light can create more authentic, intentional relationships. Because here's the truth: you can't truly consent to something you don't know you're choosing.In this episode, we talk about:— The difference between monogamy and mono-normativity— Why most couples never explicitly define what monogamy means to them—and the problems this creates— How to "individuate" your monogamous relationship by making conscious choices rather than following default scripts— The way exclusivity gets overcoupled with safety, specialness, and relationship validity— Practical ways to decenter monogamy without devaluing it— How auditing your language can help create more inclusive spaces for all relationship styles— Why making monogamy a conscious choice can actually strengthen your relationship— The importance of distinguishing between attraction, fantasy, and action in any relationship— How creative practices like making playlists, writing, and storytelling can help us imagine relating beyond mono-normative frameworks— The value of creating your own "monogamy statement" with your partner as a connective, clarifying exercise— Why questioning mono-normativity doesn't mean you have to change your relationship structure—it just means you get to choose it consciouslyResources mentioned in this episode:— Alex Alberto's memoir Entwined and their short filmJOIN The Year Of Opening® community for a full year of learning & support. Registration is open now at ⁠⁠www.TheYearOfOpening.com⁠⁠Learn the 5 secrets to open your relationship the smart wayAre you ready to open your relationship happily? Find out at www.JoliQuiz.comGet the answers you want to create the open relationship of your dreams! Sign up for an Ask Me Anything hereMusic: Dance of Felt by ⁠Blue Dot Sessions

Two relationship experts share their enlightening journey through an 18-month sexual drought. They redefine magnificent sex as a soul-shaking connection that demands ongoing attention and vulnerability. The conversation dives into the key elements of intimacy, the importance of creating safe spaces, and simple yet effective interventions like written requests. They also emphasize the significance of aftercare and reconnecting with personal erotic themes to restore sexual vitality. A candid exploration of growth and intimacy awaits!

Discovering your polyamorous identity while in a long-term monogamous relationship can feel both liberating and terrifying. It's a moment of personal truth that can shake the foundations of your partnership—and that's exactly why it deserves careful, thoughtful consideration.When you realize something fundamental about yourself has shifted (or perhaps was always there but unnamed), it's natural to want to share this with your partner. But how do you navigate this conversation without causing unnecessary harm or rushing into territory neither of you is prepared for?In this episode, we talk about:— Why rushing into action after this realization can lead to unnecessary pain and relationship damage— The importance of understanding what your current monogamy actually looks like before trying to change it— How to create space for both excitement about new possibilities and grief about what might be changing— The value of slowing down and sitting in the "liminal space" between paradigms— Why the person bringing polyamory into the relationship needs to be mindful of their partner's need for processing time— The difference between polyamorous identity and polyamorous behavior (you can be polyamorous without having multiple partners!)— How to approach the conversation with care, acknowledging that it may feel like betrayal to your partner— The importance of making explicit what has been implicit in your relationship— Why both partners need support during this transition, regardless of who initiated the conversationResources mentioned in this episode:— Our guide for having difficult conversations with your partner— Our episode on grief and relationship changes— Entwined by Alex AlbertoJOIN The Year Of Opening® community for a full year of learning & support. Registration is open now at ⁠⁠www.TheYearOfOpening.com⁠⁠Learn the 5 secrets to open your relationship the smart wayAre you ready to open your relationship happily? Find out at www.JoliQuiz.comGet the answers you want to create the open relationship of your dreams! Sign up for an Ask Me Anything hereMusic: Dance of Felt by ⁠Blue Dot Sessions

Discover why knowing what you truly want can transform relationships. Explore how childhood experiences and social pressures shape your desires. Learn to use disappointment as a guide and differentiate between real wants and societal expectations. Uncover techniques to access your imagination and recognize envy as a sign of unmet needs. The podcast dives into personality styles that influence how we navigate our desires. Engage in playful practices to embrace longing and ultimately create a fulfilling life.

When we're in the thick of navigating non-monogamy, especially in the early stages, it can feel like an endless emotional workout. The jealousy, the NRE highs and lows, the constant communication—it's a lot! Many people wonder if it will ever get easier or if this constant state of emotional processing is just what non-monogamy is all about.The good news? It absolutely can become more easeful! In this episode, we explore what "boring polyamory" might look like and why it might actually be a good fit for you. We challenge the assumption that non-monogamy must be inherently harder than monogamy and offer practical insights for creating more sustainable, grounded relationships.We’re breaking down:— The difference between "easy" and "easeful" in relationships— How we often mistake intensity for intimacy, and why that keeps us locked in drama cycles— The ways we unconsciously validate our non-monogamy by staying in turbulence and conflict— Why the premise that "monogamy is easier" is a harmful myth that keeps us stuck— How our nervous system awareness directly impacts our capacity for easeful relationships— The drama triangle and how it keeps us locked in unhealthy patterns— The importance of making implicit expectations explicit through clear agreements— Creating micro-spaces for reconnection and communication in your relationships— Why familiar patterns will win out over healthy ones (and what to do about it)— How to identify what a week of calm, fulfilling polyamory would look like for youResources mentioned in this episode:— Our Drama Triangle episodeJOIN The Year Of Opening® community for a full year of learning & support. Registration is open now at ⁠⁠www.TheYearOfOpening.com⁠⁠Learn the 5 secrets to open your relationship the smart wayAre you ready to open your relationship happily? Find out at www.JoliQuiz.comGet the answers you want to create the open relationship of your dreams! Sign up for an Ask Me Anything hereMusic: Dance of Felt by ⁠Blue Dot Sessions

Feeling exhausted by non-monogamy? You're not alone! Even when we know why we chose this path, the day-to-day reality can sometimes feel overwhelming. But before you throw in the towel, let's explore what's really happening when non-monogamy feels like "too much" – and what you can do about it.Whether you're new to non-monogamy or have been practicing for years, we all hit points where we question if the effort is worth it. The good news? There are concrete strategies you can use to build resilience and reconnect with your "why" – without burning yourself out in the process.In this episode, we talk about:— The difference between persisting through growth versus persisting through unnecessary pain— How to assess whether you're genuinely at capacity or just expecting things to be easier than they realistically can be— The importance of checking your actual capacity across different domains of life (physical, emotional, social)— Practical ways to recognize your personal "tells" when you're becoming dysregulated— Why the stories we tell ourselves about our exhaustion matter just as much as the exhaustion itself— Building nervous system regulation skills to help manage relationship challenges— The value of making meaning from difficulties rather than just trying to eliminate them— Why it's impossible to "go back" to not knowing about relationship possibilities once you've started exploring them— How the skills you're developing through non-monogamy benefit your growth regardless of your relationship structure— The importance of community support when navigating relationship challengesResources mentioned in this episode:— Normalizing Non-Monogamy's community resources— Marion Woodman's The Ravaged Bridegroom— James Hillman's works— Andrea Zanin's Post Non-Monogamy and BeyondPlaying With Fire has been featured at #3 in FeedSpot's list of the ⁠Top 25 Non-monogamy Podcasts⁠!JOIN The Year Of Opening® community for a full year of learning & support. Registration is open now at ⁠⁠www.TheYearOfOpening.com⁠⁠Learn the 5 secrets to open your relationship the smart wayAre you ready to open your relationship happily? Find out at www.JoliQuiz.comGet the answers you want to create the open relationship of your dreams! Sign up for an Ask Me Anything hereMusic: Dance of Felt by ⁠Blue Dot Sessions