
The Crappy Childhood Fairy Podcast with Anna Runkle
I’m Anna Runkle, also known as the Crappy Childhood Fairy, and I teach people to recognize and heal the symptoms of Childhood PTSD. Welcome to my podcast!I’m not a doctor or therapist; I know about childhood trauma because I lived it, and I discovered a radical approach to healing that focuses first on calming neurological dysregulation, which is common in people who grew up with abuse and neglect. In my podcasts, I teach about dysregulation – how to know if you have it, what it can do to your body, your thinking and your relationships, and what to do to master re-regulation. When I learned this, everything in my life got suddenly easier. I’ll also be teaching you to heal the life problems that so often develop after years of living dysregulated – feeling tired, isolated and unfocused, finding yourself always drawn to unavailable and inappropriate partners, and falling WAY short of your professional potential, for example. The thing about me is, traditional therapies never seemed to help me. When I found techniques that did work, my whole life changed. Only in the past few years has the trauma research caught up to explain why – why the techniques I use worked, why therapy didn’t, and why my healing journey was so unnecessarily long. I’ve been teaching what I learned for more than 20 years now. It started with friends who had noticed the quick and dramatic change in me, and gradually grew by word of mouth. In 2016, I had so many people seeking instruction that I made my first online video, and then an online course, and this is how Crappy Childhood Fairy was born. My techniques and principles are practical yet powerful – an approach anyone can use, whether or not you have access to professional help. In this podcast, I’ll be talking about the master of self-regulation, and teach the tough-love life-lessons that you may not have learned at home – like how to date so that stable love finds you, how to get ahead at work, and how to calm the negative hamster-wheel thoughts that block your ability to connect with other people. Today, almost half a million people follow my work and participate in my training and coaching programs. My mission is to change the paradigm of what’s possible for people like us, and to help you free yourself from the oppression of trauma wounds, and to become your full, happy and real self. I’m glad you’re here! Watch new videos on my YouTube channel every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and access my videos, courses and free tools at crappychildhoodfairy.com.
Latest episodes

Aug 9, 2024 • 12min
Walking on Eggshells So THEY Feel OK Means It’s Time to Go
Finding the right therapist can be daunting, especially when credentials don’t guarantee emotional stability. A listener shares her struggle with trust and connection issues due to past traumas. The conversation also emphasizes the difficulty of recognizing toxic therapy relationships and the importance of prioritizing personal well-being. Establishing boundaries in therapy is vital for healing, and online therapy offers a promising alternative for those feeling stuck in their current situations.

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Aug 7, 2024 • 25min
What “I’m Not Ready For a Relationship” Really Means
Explore how childhood trauma leads many to crave genuine love while settling for unreliable connections. Discover the complexities of breaking cycles of emotional neglect and the journey of self-discovery needed to combat low self-esteem. Delve into the struggles of navigating heartbreak and self-worth, especially when faced with partners who aren’t ready to commit. Gain insights into the importance of setting standards in dating, ensuring that past wounds don't dictate future relationships.

Aug 5, 2024 • 36min
Some People Lash Out. Others Shut Down. Which Are You?
Exploring the impact of trauma, the discussion highlights how self-suppression can be as harmful as outward aggression. Listeners learn to recognize avoidance behaviors that block personal growth. The importance of overcoming cynicism is emphasized, fostering genuine relationships. Self-neglect and its emotional toll, including feelings of shame, are dissected, while listeners are encouraged to confront their financial and personal joys. Finally, the journey of authentic self-expression is discussed, with practical advice on healing from trauma and embracing one's true self.

Aug 4, 2024 • 1h 25min
How Trauma Makes It Hard to See What's Real (4-Video Compilation)
This discussion delves into the complexities of healing from childhood trauma, emphasizing the importance of self-regulation and proactive personal growth. It highlights the emotional toll of toxic relationships and the necessity for healthy boundaries. Strategies for coping with overwhelm are shared, focusing on resilience and daily emotional practices. The intersection of work and family life is examined, stressing the need for support and presence during crucial years for children. Listeners are encouraged to reclaim their clarity and empower their healing journeys.

Aug 2, 2024 • 14min
How to REALLY Declutter Reminders of the Painful Past
Explore the deep connection between trauma and physical clutter in this insightful discussion. A listener grapples with whether to keep items that stir mixed emotions of love and mistreatment. Delve into the nostalgia linked to belongings and how childhood experiences shape our relationship with them. The conversation emphasizes the importance of recognizing and processing feelings tied to past pain, offering valuable resources for healing and clarity.

Jul 31, 2024 • 17min
Why It's Hard to Tell if a Friendship is Good (Or Toxic)
Navigating the complexities of friendships after trauma can be challenging. The discussion dives into how shared trauma can create strong emotional bonds, yet also highlight negative behaviors as one starts to heal. Listeners hear about setting boundaries, recognizing toxic patterns, and deciding whether to salvage or sever friendships that no longer serve them. It’s a heartfelt exploration of friendship dynamics and personal growth, encouraging self-awareness and honesty in relationships.

Jul 29, 2024 • 18min
If You Had Trauma in Childhood, Healing This Will Change Your Life
Childhood PTSD often triggers overwhelming feelings linked to the pressure of hurrying. This discussion highlights the impact of rushing on emotional well-being and offers insights into managing dysregulation. Listeners learn practical strategies to slow down, embrace mindfulness, and maintain organizational skills to foster healing. It’s a deep dive into recognizing common triggers and transforming them into opportunities for recovery.

Jul 28, 2024 • 1h 43min
Heal Insecurity-Driven Relationship Patterns (4-Video Compilation)
People who were neglected as children often struggle to form stable, lasting relationships. One big reason is insecure attachment -- a wound of trauma (particularly neglect) that creates a chronic sense of anxiety that you're not wanted, or you are about to be abandoned. You might RUSH in and get enmeshed with someone you just met, or exhaust yourself trying to be good enough for people who are emotionally unavailable. In this 4-video compilation I share four of my most popular videos on childhood neglect and insecure attachment. Learn what this looks like, and why it's so important to begin healing so you can finally be loved at last.
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Jul 26, 2024 • 16min
Believing You’re Responsible to Fix Them Is Why It’s Not Working
The reason I say codependency is so destructive to everyone it touches is that A) it drains the person who has abandoned themselves to become entirely focused on fixing another person, and B) the person being fixed is NOT fixed -- and doesn’t like it, and will usually leave. But that’s not what it FEELS like when you’ve been showing up in good faith with someone who is ambivalent toward you. In this video I respond to a letter from a woman whose heart is breaking, and she's finding out what the problem was all along.
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Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com
NEED ONLINE THERAPY? *BetterHelp* can connect you with a licensed, online therapist: https://betterhelp.com/CCF

Jul 24, 2024 • 24min
Stop Pretending You Don’t Need Love
Exploring the impact of childhood neglect on relationships, the longing for genuine love, and the struggle to break free from toxic dynamics. Highlighting the importance of boundaries, self-worth, and seeking support in navigating emotional turmoil and overcoming attachment in relationships.