
The Crappy Childhood Fairy Podcast with Anna Runkle
I’m Anna Runkle, also known as the Crappy Childhood Fairy, and I teach people to recognize and heal the symptoms of Childhood PTSD. Welcome to my podcast!I’m not a doctor or therapist; I know about childhood trauma because I lived it, and I discovered a radical approach to healing that focuses first on calming neurological dysregulation, which is common in people who grew up with abuse and neglect. In my podcasts, I teach about dysregulation – how to know if you have it, what it can do to your body, your thinking and your relationships, and what to do to master re-regulation. When I learned this, everything in my life got suddenly easier. I’ll also be teaching you to heal the life problems that so often develop after years of living dysregulated – feeling tired, isolated and unfocused, finding yourself always drawn to unavailable and inappropriate partners, and falling WAY short of your professional potential, for example. The thing about me is, traditional therapies never seemed to help me. When I found techniques that did work, my whole life changed. Only in the past few years has the trauma research caught up to explain why – why the techniques I use worked, why therapy didn’t, and why my healing journey was so unnecessarily long. I’ve been teaching what I learned for more than 20 years now. It started with friends who had noticed the quick and dramatic change in me, and gradually grew by word of mouth. In 2016, I had so many people seeking instruction that I made my first online video, and then an online course, and this is how Crappy Childhood Fairy was born. My techniques and principles are practical yet powerful – an approach anyone can use, whether or not you have access to professional help. In this podcast, I’ll be talking about the master of self-regulation, and teach the tough-love life-lessons that you may not have learned at home – like how to date so that stable love finds you, how to get ahead at work, and how to calm the negative hamster-wheel thoughts that block your ability to connect with other people. Today, almost half a million people follow my work and participate in my training and coaching programs. My mission is to change the paradigm of what’s possible for people like us, and to help you free yourself from the oppression of trauma wounds, and to become your full, happy and real self. I’m glad you’re here! Watch new videos on my YouTube channel every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and access my videos, courses and free tools at crappychildhoodfairy.com.
Latest episodes

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Dec 9, 2024 • 21min
Trauma Is a Portal Where Evil Gets In, Unless You Fight It
Dive into the intriguing connection between trauma and the emergence of evil. The discussion reveals how unresolved childhood issues can perpetuate harmful cycles through generations. Healing isn’t just beneficial; it’s essential to reclaim inherent goodness. The conversation emphasizes the power of personal reflection and growth in combating these dark influences. Listeners are encouraged to confront their past to break the chains that bind them and foster a healthier future.

Dec 8, 2024 • 1h 36min
Neglect in Childhood and Self-Sabotage (4-Video Compilation)
It’s common in our culture for people to sleep together almost as soon as they meet. And people act like that’s fun and easy, and only foolish people can’t handle it, or think it should be avoided, in favor of something better. So for people who grew up neglected and abused, there’s a contradiction – their attachment wound is crying for someone to love them and STAY and not leave, but the culture of casual sex tells them this is too much to expect. In this video, I share four of my most popular videos, where I respond to letters from people who were neglected in childhood. Learn the common signs that neglect is driving self-sabotaging relationship choices, and steps you can take to heal.
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Dec 6, 2024 • 18min
Stop Rationalizing the Way You Get Mistreated in Relationships
Childhood experiences can warp our perception of love and mistreatment. Many adults, trapped in cognitive dissonance, struggle to acknowledge toxic relationships. A letter from a listener explores feelings stemming from a narcissistic mother and a partner's addiction. The conversation highlights the emotional conflicts faced when affection collides with disrespect. Breaking free from these cycles requires courage and support, emphasizing the importance of professional help for healing and reclaiming self-worth. It's time to confront and clarify these troubling dynamics.

Dec 4, 2024 • 20min
Could THIS Be Why SO Many People Treat You Badly?
Many struggle with attracting mean individuals, often stemming from past abuse. This discussion unveils the psychological links between childhood trauma and toxic relationships. It underscores the importance of self-worth and setting boundaries. Excitingly, practical tips for confronting negativity and nurturing supportive networks are shared, paving the way for healing. The conversation emphasizes self-forgiveness, helping listeners break the cycle of mistreatment and reclaim their lives.

Dec 2, 2024 • 15min
You Can’t Shake the Feeling That Everything is TEMPORARY
The discussion zeroes in on how trauma can make people perceive their relationships and homes as temporary. It emphasizes the common struggle of feeling inadequate when crafting a personal sanctuary. Practical tips, like hiring support for home projects, illustrate how stability can come from nurturing our spaces and relationships. Listeners are encouraged to confront their trauma triggers through mindful decor choices. The conversation combines empathy and actionable advice, making it relatable for anyone seeking healing.

Dec 1, 2024 • 1h 27min
How to Tell Trauma Is Driving You to Pull Away (4-video compilation)
This podcast dives deep into the effects of childhood trauma on adult relationships. It highlights how avoidant attachment can lead to painful disconnects, leaving individuals fleeing from connection. Listeners hear insightful stories, like Lisa's poignant experience with relationship confusion. There's a focus on self-worth, setting boundaries, and the emotional dynamics between anxious and avoidant partners. The discussion emphasizes the importance of understanding one’s attachment style for fostering genuine connections and navigating intimacy challenges.

Nov 29, 2024 • 21min
The Pros and Cons of Settling Down With Someone You Don’t Trust
Exploring the complexities of trust, the podcast dives into a woman's struggle with reconciling with an ex who has caused her pain. It highlights the effects of betrayal and gaslighting on her self-esteem. Through her emotional journey, the discussion reflects on the balance between love, healing, and the needs of their child. Additionally, it addresses how childhood trauma influences adult relationships, offering insights on navigating these challenges while prioritizing well-being for both individuals and their families.

Nov 27, 2024 • 27min
“Cool-Girli-sm,” Magical Thinking and Limerence Keep You ALONE
Are you pouring your heart into someone who’s not interested? It's time to wake up and reevaluate your romantic energy! Explore attachment styles and the challenges of emotional availability in relationships. Discover how to navigate the chaos of unreciprocated feelings while focusing on personal growth. Learn what makes someone partner material and the importance of setting boundaries for healthier connections. Embrace the journey toward true love and emotional fulfillment!

Nov 25, 2024 • 21min
How Trauma Makes Your Productivity Come in BURSTS
Discover the intriguing concept of a 'Productivity Crash' and how childhood trauma plays a pivotal role in productivity bursts followed by energy dips. Explore personal stories of self-doubt sparked by criticism and the journey to reclaim creative voice after betrayal. Gain insights into managing emotional crashes and pursuing passions, along with practical strategies for resilience. Learn ways to maintain balance and emotional stability through support networks and daily practices that foster well-being.

Nov 24, 2024 • 1h 16min
Why Traumatized People Can't See RED FLAGS (4-video compilation)
Trauma can distort our ability to recognize harmful patterns in relationships. Individuals with childhood PTSD often struggle to see red flags, leading to unhealthy attachments. Healing is emphasized as crucial for fostering healthier connections. Real-life stories highlight the painful cycles of abuse and the path toward recovery. Practical strategies, including EMDR therapy, are shared to help navigate trauma. There's a strong message of hope and the importance of self-care in overcoming past traumas.