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I'd be screwed without meditation. It is my go-to tool to pick up the imaginary phone and directly dial my higher self, for guidance and answers to serve me and my world. In the beginning I was scared to meditate, knowing I would get answers to help better me and my life. It meant I had the choice to change and advance beyond my bullsh!t, so my ego had me focusing on how boring it is, or how time wasting it is, or how sh!t I am at meditation (cheers ego). But with perseverance I developed a new relationship with it, and that was when I go inside, I get the answers I am seeking. And as a result I started to trust my inner voice, my intuition which grew self-trust, self confidence and the belief I can change the trajectory of my life, anytime.In this episode I give you a taste of meditation. I hope you enjoy.Support the show

I believed for a long time that in order for me to grow spiritually, I needed something drastic like a car accident to happen so I could experience a near death experience. I know I know, not something I'm proud to admit, but it's true, I believed that. A friend said to me, "don't you think you can evolve spiritually without going through all of that?" It was like someone slapped me across the face and I woke up to a life-long belief that in order to grow, I must go through pain.Support the show

I contributed to such shit energy this week in our home. For one and a half days my mind was so constricted with its viewpoint on being a step-mum and getting back into the swing of coaching, events and collaborations. My self talk was poor and the result were poor. I needed to sit myself down, have a hard chat and ask better questions of myself.Support the show

Oh the days of pretending I had my shit together on first dates. I would put on any act I thought I had to in order to be chosen by the person in front of me. Thinking back to the dates is cringe worthy because my behaviour driven by insecurity and the deep belief that I didn't belong. So at the cost of my soul, I did anything I could to belong which only left me, you guessed it, alone.Support the show

So many times I wanted to call it quits when starting out in my business. I was working hard for the money and the return was way less than the tiring hustle I was putting in. Steve took one look at what I was putting energy into - ineffective work, that was driven by a very limiting belief that women can't make money. Support the show

Waking up from ignorance is an ugly process and I'm experiencing it right now. It feels like The Truth is staring you right in the eye, grabbing you by the throat and you're standing there in shock feeling all the feels that have been buried by ignorance. This is a natural part of waking up to your power and giving rise to the leader inside you. Sure it's yuck, but it's what must be done to create the change we all truly want to see. Insta: @kat.johnWeb: www.katjohn.com.auSupport the show

I used to get to the end of year and be like, "oh I can't wait for the new year, this one's been sh!t! It'll be my best one yet!" I legit would think that the new year was a clean slate with fresh energy for the whole year. But I was dragging all my unreconciled crap with me, wondering why the new year wasn't living up to my false expectations. Little did I know (until I knew) that what I did with that year was all up to me.Support the show

I've always known deep down what I wanted, and that somewhere deep down I could have it. But my ego believed that I couldn't have it - that I didn't deserve it, that it wasn't for me, that it just won't happen in this lifetime, blah blah blah. So I reconciled in my head why things weren't working out for me, losing sight and falling short of what I knew could be fulfilled. In the last episode for Season 1, we end with a powerful reminder that there is potential waiting patiently to be actualised. And we are the ones to reignite it. Support the show

Oh I was the master of ignoring intuition. When I did, it lead to unnecessary pain, drama, chaos and shit that was (clearly) avoidable. Worst of all, I knew I heard the intuitive voice but ignored it out of being driven by my dysfunction. I cringe now with what I put myself (and others) through when in truth, I just didn't have to.Support the show

I hated my body for a long time and still have my moments of intense body "ugh"! Back in the day I felt disgusting, gross, fat and different, often believing I was inferior to anyone who was thin. This moved into eating disorders, drug abuse, disrespecting my body through sex, zero boundaries and cutting myself off from experiencing orgasms. In a nutshell, I wanted to punish myself for self-destructive beliefs that robbed me from experiencing joy and pleasure.Support the show