
Deconstructing Yourself
Dedicated to liberation in all its forms, Deconstructing Yourself is passionate about fearlessly investigating, attempting, and questioning all things to do with awakening, meditation, mindfulness, brain hacking, consciousness, neurofeedback, and more.Your host Michael W. Taft interviews some of the most interesting thinkers, authors, and teachers around, as well as other offerings. In this hard-hitting, radical, and fun podcast we look at secular post-, non-, un- Buddhism, Vajrayana, nondual Hindu Tantra, philosophy, the neuroscience of the sense of self, neurofeedback and the consciousness hacking movement, aspects of artificial intelligence, entheogens, and much more.If you’re looking for fresh directions, free from dogma and conformism, think of the Deconstructing Yourself podcast as the radical cafe where you can hear from the most interesting luminaries either from the outside edges of dharma, or a fresh take from more traditional teachers. If you’re interested in more, check out the Deconstructing Yourself website at https://deconstructingyourself.com.
Latest episodes

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May 11, 2025 • 1h 24min
Talking about Dark Retreat, with Andrew Holecek
In this engaging discussion, Andrew Holecek, an expert in Tibetan Buddhism and nondual wisdom, shares his enlightening insights on Dark Retreat, a profound spiritual practice. He explains how complete sensory deprivation reveals the construction of reality and invites deep self-exploration. Andrew candidly reflects on the transformative journey through darkness, emphasizing the fears confronted and the growth achieved. He also offers practical tips for beginning this practice, highlighting the significance of stillness and acceptance in navigating the depths of consciousness.

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Apr 18, 2025 • 45min
Sanity and Sainthood, with Dr. Tucker Peck
In this engaging discussion, Dr. Tucker Peck, a meditation teacher, clinical psychologist, and bestselling author, explores the profound concepts of sanity and sainthood. He contrasts understanding mental processes with the desire for constant happiness. Peck outlines a practical definition of both sanity and sainthood while introducing his three-stage model of meditation. He also discusses the unique intersection of Dharma and psychology, shedding light on how meditation can address severe psychological issues and promote empathy.

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Feb 12, 2025 • 50min
Awakening, Cessation, and Vulnerability, with Stephen Snyder
Stephen Snyder, a seasoned Sensei with deep expertise in various Buddhist traditions, discusses his extensive meditation journey. He highlights the profound connection between breath awareness and jhana, revealing its transformative effects. Vulnerability emerges as a key theme, showcasing how raw emotions like anger can catalyze personal growth. Snyder also explains protective meditations in Theravadan practice and delves into the unique stages of shikantaza, emphasizing cessation as pivotal for awakening. His insights blend spirituality with practical emotional work.

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Jan 15, 2025 • 1h 3min
Aghora, Deities, and Devotion with Dr. Robert Svoboda
Dr. Robert Svoboda, an American author and Ayurvedic doctor, shares his insights on the Aghora method's transformative practices, including how to transcend personal identity and foster positive energy. He explores the dual paths of knowledge and devotion, emphasizing the importance of heartfelt bhakti over intellect. The conversation also touches on the unseen influences of egregores in the digital age and the impact of technology on spiritual energy. Svoboda highlights the interconnectedness of human relationships and the significance of responsibility amid crises.

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Dec 12, 2024 • 45min
Invocation and Shadow with Charlie Awbery
In a captivating discussion, Charlie Awbery, a seasoned Vajrayana teacher and author, explores their spiritual journey and the significance of names in community practice. They share insights on the playful essence of Tantric philosophy and the evolution of teacher-student dynamics, emphasizing mutual engagement. Charlie highlights a unique invocation's transformative role and the importance of embracing shadows for personal growth. With a focus on fluid identities, this conversation invites reflection on adapting ancient teachings for contemporary spirituality.

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Nov 11, 2024 • 59min
Tantra, Aghora, and Death, with Dr. Robert Svoboda
Dr. Robert Svoboda, an American author and Ayurvedic doctor, dives into the radical Aghora sect's cemetery practices and the transformative teachings of his mentor, Vimalananda. He explores the intertwining paths of bhakti and jnana, emphasizing the significance of death awareness for personal growth. Svoboda discusses karmic connections, urging mindfulness and compassion in relationships while sharing mystical encounters that challenge fears. His insights invite listeners to confront mortality and embrace spirituality for a deeper understanding of life.

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Oct 7, 2024 • 1h 11min
Meditation and Memory with Anthony Metivier
Michael Taft chats with Anthony Metivier, founder of the Magnetic Memory Method and author of The Victorious Mind. They delve into how memory techniques can boost meditation practices. Anthony explains the ancient Memory Palace method and its ties to vivid imagery for better recall. The conversation covers his journey from atheism to spiritual exploration and the memorization of sacred texts, enhancing both cognitive abilities and emotional health. Listeners gain insights into making memorization personal and integrating it with mindfulness.

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Jul 24, 2024 • 47min
Practicing the Diamond Sutra with Ken McLeod
Buddhist teacher Ken McLeod discusses the significance of the Diamond Sutra, exploring translation challenges and ancient texts. He emphasizes embodying spiritual practice, daily mindfulness, and engaging with the sutra through oral recitation. The episode also includes announcements of meditation retreats and ways to support the podcast.

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Jul 9, 2024 • 57min
Original Love with Henry Shukman
Meditation teacher Henry Shukman discusses original love vs. original sin, the purpose of life as experiencing love, and the four zones of love. He shares insights on deep meditation training, the benefits of guided meditation, discipline, and approaches to meditation guidance.

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Jun 25, 2024 • 54min
Practicing Tummo with Peter McEwen
Meditation coach Peter McEwen and host Michael Taft discuss practicing Tummo, deity yoga, subtle body, challenges of Tummo practice, bliss, and staying with disturbing experiences. Peter shares insights on body energetics, benefits of Tummo practice, and importance of accurate teaching to prevent harm.