Something Positive for Positive People

I speak to a couple of DMs I received and just how actually rare it is that we are rejected compared to what we think in our minds. The majority of us with herpes are at an ok place with our herpes diagnosis, I just happen to only hear from various people who are currently struggling, which comes and goes, but it's most important that we understand our blueprints for navigating a herpes diagnosis won't always come from a herpes resource.

Some quick takeaways from Jess here: The most useful resource for navigating herpes comes from within the herpes community, while the worst are the health care providers diagnosing us with STIs consistently. How is stigma so prevalent that your mom can be in the doctor's office with you when you're receiving an oral herpes diagnosis only for her later to say to you don't ever get herpes and then talk about how bad it is? We talk of course about how sex ed failed us and how useful therapy is, and then we answer some questions from participants in the IG Live which was dope! Thanks everyone for being here. I'll consistently record evenings at 7:30pm central time when I have a guest lined up. right now we have one scheduled for Thursday evening as well if you wanna join the next one.

I share a healing experience that was sparked in therapy in regards to unconscious behavior I hadn't before looked at. I introduce the Something Positive FROM Positive People blog which features insights from our community that anyone can apply to their lives. I had some recent experiences where my boundaries were being chipped away at and I thought I would handle that here. I can't believe I talked for an hour. I thought I only had 30 minutes in me haha. But good thing ya'll like these solo episodes. Let me know what you think. Whenever I have schedule cancellations I think I'll just record a solo episode and upload it right away. I've had a few people miss interviews, reschedule last minute and then flat out ghost me after recording and it honestly makes me disappointed. So that time doesn't go to waste, I'll just record and upload right away talking about whatever is on my mind and has been going on.

I interview a woman I met almost 7 years ago on a dating site. She didn't know I had herpes at the time, but eventually I shared with her that I had it and not long afterward, she found out she did as well. This is actually our first time meeting even though we've grown to become very close over the years. This is someone I connect with on a soul level and she's actually a person who heavily contributed to my spirituality/emotional intelligence spark of interest. Please bear with me through my sporadic coughs in this and the next maybe 6 episodes. I had something going on at the time and did my best to conceal. We discuss her experiences developing boundaries through abusive relationships, the importance of mental health care integration into sex education, Lyme Disease and HSV, You can connect with me at www.spfpp.org and learn how you can get involved with Something Positive for Positive People's efforts of integrating post-STI diagnosis support with STD Prevention efforts, developing relationships with mental health organizations to get people therapy and the investment into the number 1 SPFPP resource, this podcast.

Hanna Dickinson SHOWED UP for us on this one. We hear a genuine experience from a comic who was newly diagnosed with genital HSV. Not only that, but she talks about her REAL experiences navigating her status like a REAL person, despite her social status. We discuss depression, suicide, abuse, herpes jokes and more on this episode. You can connect with Hanna on Instagram @HansDickie and me @honmychest

The title speaks for itself. After so many individual interactions with people living with HSV, and then attending in person social groups for people with HSV, I notice that there's a major willingness to heal from the individual, and the attendees. The only difference is the risk-reward tolerance from person who will only speak to me as someone who's already made their status known, compared to the person willing to put themselves out there into the unknown with the exclusive sense of safety they created for themselves by being part of the community. Within these communities, you find that there are many amazing stories from humans about their lived experiences as they relate to herpes and as they relate to life outside of herpes and in fact, people with herpes connect far deeper with one another based on non-herpes things in my experience. A frustrating realization is that the CDC, with all its credibility, does not recommend herpes testing even if requested by a patient. Their reasoning is that behavior doesn't change after a person tests positive for herpes. As someone who's interviewed about 200 people with herpes and had thousands of conversations with people living with it who've shared exactly how this has changed their behaviors 100% of the time, we gotta question the validity of their research here. The healing in community vs individually has shown me one thing. Separate, we seek answers from "credible" resources easily accessible and low-risk of another human knowing our status. In community, we share resources as they parallel our own experiences and they circulate among the people directly impacted who also have stake in the accuracy of information given we can challenge it with our experiences and just ask the group. So we ARE the resource. You can connect with our guest, Jen at: Facebook: Jen Lamar Instagram: jen_of_cinnarostor Snapchat: jenjenj87 and I can be found on social media @Honmychest

Dee was diagnosed with herpes 5 years ago 2 weeks after her then boyfriend now husband had his first symptoms. We don't hear stories that touch on how to navigate staying together after a positive diagnosis occurs in an exclusive/committed/monogamous (whichever you choose to call it, relationship. Herpes is extremely common. This untold story is the first of its kind shared here, but it does happen. Most people's struggles with their diagnosis initially revolves around not finding a partner. Other stories shared, the relationship ended and then someone got herpes or there wasn't a relationship to begin with. This is Dee's first time discussing this outside of sharing her experience with her partner, her Doula, her doctor, sister and mother, so I didn't go too deep into her experiences but you get a good feel for where she is with her status as this reflects the experiences of people in relationships where someone tests positive. It just doesn't have to come up. Two people who had an existing relationship prior to it being sexual were diagnosed with herpes. They got treatment, they continued the relationship and now have a family. We hear what herpes has taken away from us, we hear about the silver lining in what it gave us, but what if we understand that it just happens? Nothing was lost or gained in regards to their relationship. Dee just couldn't deliver a natural birth because of an outbreak. How has your life remained the same after your herpes diagnosis? What forced changes have you been making attempts at due to this virus?

Our working definition of disclosure fatigue is being tired of telling people something about yourself that's important for them to know but they may not know about, so you have to educate them and almost convince them to accept what's being disclosed. On my Instagram account @HonMyChest I've been sharing about this topic from the SPFPP audience. It's interesting how disclosure fatigue shows up and how there are many other things to disclose and have disclosed to us outside just herpes. Today we hear from someone living with diabetes and herpes. We talk about how they're similar and different. We talk about the necessity based on who has to know. We discuss putting boundaries in place that protect us from experiencing it too much. We also discuss a little about who we choose to disclose to being a contributor to disclosure fatigue. This will be an ongoing discussion through upcoming episodes so we can learn to navigate the education piece while also protecting our emotions. What are some other things we have to disclose besides our STI status? What are some things you've been disclosed to that maybe your lack of knowledge about would cause the other person fatigue?

After ending a long-term relationship with her first sexual partner, like many others, wanted to explore and see for themselves what else is out there that they could've been missing out on. It was soon after as she put it, playing 'catch up', that she received her genital HSV diagnosis. We discuss her behavior change after her new diagnosis in being more aware of a partner's apprehension toward her when it came to sex as well. I want to start leaving people with questions to ask themselves going into these podcast episodes just to challenge your perspective. This episode, our guest shares that she was in fact more concerned with how men would view her due to her identity being so intertwined with receiving validation from sexual partners. Ask yourself if you were to share your positive status or disclose something publicly about yourself no one knew, what outcome would you hope for and why? How do you deal with partners' apprehension whether verbal or nonverbal towards you when it comes to sex after you've disclosed? Last question . . . Pandemic dating, who is "worth" the risk of getting COVID? Now apply that to an STI.

22 year old Brenna shares her "boring ass herpes story" if you let her tell it. This really turned out to be quite the inspiration to young women not only navigating a positive herpes diagnosis, but surviving Catholic school sex education, sexual assault, emotionally abusive relationships, shaving her head & cutting. Learn how our guest found her voice and learned that she's actually a bad bitch, a bad bitch whose Onlyfans you can check out here for yourself: https://onlyfans.com/?ref=118414720