
The Crappy Childhood Fairy Podcast with Anna Runkle
I’m Anna Runkle, also known as the Crappy Childhood Fairy, and I teach people to recognize and heal the symptoms of Childhood PTSD. Welcome to my podcast!I’m not a doctor or therapist; I know about childhood trauma because I lived it, and I discovered a radical approach to healing that focuses first on calming neurological dysregulation, which is common in people who grew up with abuse and neglect. In my podcasts, I teach about dysregulation – how to know if you have it, what it can do to your body, your thinking and your relationships, and what to do to master re-regulation. When I learned this, everything in my life got suddenly easier. I’ll also be teaching you to heal the life problems that so often develop after years of living dysregulated – feeling tired, isolated and unfocused, finding yourself always drawn to unavailable and inappropriate partners, and falling WAY short of your professional potential, for example. The thing about me is, traditional therapies never seemed to help me. When I found techniques that did work, my whole life changed. Only in the past few years has the trauma research caught up to explain why – why the techniques I use worked, why therapy didn’t, and why my healing journey was so unnecessarily long. I’ve been teaching what I learned for more than 20 years now. It started with friends who had noticed the quick and dramatic change in me, and gradually grew by word of mouth. In 2016, I had so many people seeking instruction that I made my first online video, and then an online course, and this is how Crappy Childhood Fairy was born. My techniques and principles are practical yet powerful – an approach anyone can use, whether or not you have access to professional help. In this podcast, I’ll be talking about the master of self-regulation, and teach the tough-love life-lessons that you may not have learned at home – like how to date so that stable love finds you, how to get ahead at work, and how to calm the negative hamster-wheel thoughts that block your ability to connect with other people. Today, almost half a million people follow my work and participate in my training and coaching programs. My mission is to change the paradigm of what’s possible for people like us, and to help you free yourself from the oppression of trauma wounds, and to become your full, happy and real self. I’m glad you’re here! Watch new videos on my YouTube channel every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and access my videos, courses and free tools at crappychildhoodfairy.com.
Latest episodes

Dec 27, 2023 • 22min
How to Build The Life You Want (Even Though They Didn't Tell You HOW)
Challenges faced by those who grew up poor, importance of guidance, seeking fulfillment, planting seeds for long-term growth, value of informational interviews, limitations of the school system, benefits of YouTube as a teaching platform, perseverance, finding inspiration

Dec 25, 2023 • 15min
The Number One Reason Traumatized People Pull Away
Isolating is an almost universal symptom of PTSD from childhood – or for anyone with wounds from trauma. There’s what it looks like from the outside. But the real reason you silate may not be becuase you want to be alone; chances are, you long for love and connection, and to belong in a community of friends. Find out in this video the REAL reason why traumatized people tend to hold themselves apart from others.
Do You Struggle to Connect with People?: FREE Pdf Download: https://bit.ly/3LcjDD8
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Dec 24, 2023 • 47min
The Real Reason The World Needs You To Heal From Trauma
When you first start healing CPTSD, simply feeling a little better seems like the most you could ever hope for. You DO need to feel better, but you were meant for SO much more. In this four-video compilation I share some of my best content about discovering your gifts and stepping up into your true purpose in life.
Heal Trauma in Just One Year?: FREE Pdf Download: https://bit.ly/3JrPdvx
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Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com

Dec 22, 2023 • 20min
CPTD Makes You Fill Your Life with Half-Relationships
One of the worst wounds a parent can inflict on a child is to not recognize them as distinct person -- not caring about their unique needs and their strengths, and not helping them to recognize these in themselves. If you were neglected in this way, one way it can show up is as "romantic clutter" -- a tendency to form partial relationships with people you half-love, who only partially love you. In this video I respond to a letter from a woman who has CPTSD, and for whom the pattern continues.
Prepare for a GREAT Relationship: FREE Pdf Download: https://bit.ly/43SH8aV
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Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com

Dec 20, 2023 • 25min
Childhood Neglect and The High Cost of Trying to Be “Good Enough”
If you were neglected as a child, you may still be acting on a belief that if you could only be nice enough, your parents would have transformed into the loving, caring adults you needed. This coping mechanism helps many kids who had trauma to survive, but now that you're an adult, you may still be suppressing your real self in hopes you can make the people you date love you and stay with you. Has it worked? In this video I respond to a woman who keeps getting rejected, despite her best efforts to be helpful and "nice" to her partners.
Dating Quiz: FREE Pdf Download: https://bit.ly/3EUy8Yh
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Dec 18, 2023 • 44min
To Be a Light in Hard Times, Ask Yourself This (and Take Action on the Answers)
In this podcast, the speaker explores the challenges of current societal division and dysfunctional families. They discuss the power of stillness in processing emotions and offer tips for daily practices to promote healing. The importance of self-evaluation, setting boundaries, and continuous learning for personal growth is emphasized. The speaker encourages reflection on what is being avoided in life and taking small steps towards healing from childhood PTSD.

Dec 17, 2023 • 1h 12min
Overcoming Trauma is a Step by Step Process (4-Video Compilation)
When we talk about childhood trauma, so much of the focus goes onto the past -- what happened, and who did it. This is important, but healing can't really take place until you learn to focus on -- and CALM -- present day symptoms and solve the life problems that are so common for people with CPTSD. In this "best of the Fairy" compilation, I share four of my most popular videos detailing strategies you can use to heal symptoms and transform your life.
Heal Trauma in Just One Year? FREE Pdf Download: https://bit.ly/3JrPdvx
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Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com

Dec 15, 2023 • 23min
CPTSD Blinds You to Signs They Are TAKING From You But Don't Care
Something beautiful about people is that we are designed to delight in others – to connect and bond with them, and sometimes, to fall in love and give our whole heart. CPTSD can distort that natural process of finding someone to love, and mislead you into attaching to people who cannot love you back. If you have trauma-driven boundary problems, they are happy enough to take advantage and leave when they are done. In this video I respond to a letter from a man who feels ripped off and heartbroken, but is ready to learn how to change his dating pattern so that he can find real love.
The Signs of Limerence. FREE Pdf Download: https://bit.ly/3PbqblT
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Dec 13, 2023 • 31min
CPTSD Wounds Can Make You Worry Constantly, Even When Things Are Fine
Learning to love a partner is a huge and happy accomplishment for those of us who lived through abuse and neglect in childhood. Trauma wounds don't end in childhood; early abuse and neglect can leave us with trauma-driven behaviors that re-traumatize us and prevent healing. It can take time to release old patterns and change your life. In this video I respond to a woman with a harsh past who now struggles to find peace in her relationship, even though she is loved and supportive.
Ten Signs Your Trauma Is Healing: https://bit.ly/3raZghI
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Dec 11, 2023 • 43min
This Form of Writing Is Effective For Healing Trauma & Physical/Mental Health
If you had childhood trauma and you’re still relying on conventional approaches to heal, you may still be suffering with symptoms and losing hope that healing can happen. Talking about your traumatic experiences may NOT be the best way to heal from what happened to you in childhood. In fact it can activate neural circuits related to the *stress response* – that make it harder to think, harder to focus and next to impossible to process your emotions! But there's a better way. In this video I talk about 30 years of research that shows that writing about traumatic experiences has powerful healing effects. I highlight the recent podcast from Andrew Huberman @hubermanlab, summarizing the work of Dr. James Pennebaker (and subsequent peer-reviewed studies based on his work).
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You can listen to the @hubermanlab post "A Science Supported Journaling Protocol to Improve Mental & Physical Health" here: https://youtu.be/wAZn9dF3XTo?si=07-48lub-y-V6iE8
You can learn about Dr. Pennebaker and his work here: https://bit.ly/47CZ7ng
Take my FREE Course or Quizzes: https://bit.ly/40M2YeW
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Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com