
The Crappy Childhood Fairy Podcast with Anna Runkle
I’m Anna Runkle, also known as the Crappy Childhood Fairy, and I teach people to recognize and heal the symptoms of Childhood PTSD. Welcome to my podcast!I’m not a doctor or therapist; I know about childhood trauma because I lived it, and I discovered a radical approach to healing that focuses first on calming neurological dysregulation, which is common in people who grew up with abuse and neglect. In my podcasts, I teach about dysregulation – how to know if you have it, what it can do to your body, your thinking and your relationships, and what to do to master re-regulation. When I learned this, everything in my life got suddenly easier. I’ll also be teaching you to heal the life problems that so often develop after years of living dysregulated – feeling tired, isolated and unfocused, finding yourself always drawn to unavailable and inappropriate partners, and falling WAY short of your professional potential, for example. The thing about me is, traditional therapies never seemed to help me. When I found techniques that did work, my whole life changed. Only in the past few years has the trauma research caught up to explain why – why the techniques I use worked, why therapy didn’t, and why my healing journey was so unnecessarily long. I’ve been teaching what I learned for more than 20 years now. It started with friends who had noticed the quick and dramatic change in me, and gradually grew by word of mouth. In 2016, I had so many people seeking instruction that I made my first online video, and then an online course, and this is how Crappy Childhood Fairy was born. My techniques and principles are practical yet powerful – an approach anyone can use, whether or not you have access to professional help. In this podcast, I’ll be talking about the master of self-regulation, and teach the tough-love life-lessons that you may not have learned at home – like how to date so that stable love finds you, how to get ahead at work, and how to calm the negative hamster-wheel thoughts that block your ability to connect with other people. Today, almost half a million people follow my work and participate in my training and coaching programs. My mission is to change the paradigm of what’s possible for people like us, and to help you free yourself from the oppression of trauma wounds, and to become your full, happy and real self. I’m glad you’re here! Watch new videos on my YouTube channel every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and access my videos, courses and free tools at crappychildhoodfairy.com.
Latest episodes

May 14, 2025 • 13min
Why You Feel Left Out in Groups (and What to Do About It)
When I started teaching about trauma I never expected that one of my biggest challenges -- feeling like I didn't fit in with other people -- was actually a common trauma symptom. If you have CPTSD or you have trouble feeling connected with others, you’re going to want to see this.
Do you have CPTSD? Take the QUIZ: FREE PDF Download: https://bit.ly/3X9MZ7J
🟢 Order My New Book, RE-REGULATED: https://bit.ly/4dtGVze
Take my FREE Course or Quizzes: https://bit.ly/40M2YeW
Enroll in my Courses or Membership: https://bit.ly/3HP5qcf
Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com
NEED ONLINE THERAPY? *BetterHelp* can connect you with a licensed, online therapist: https://betterhelp.com/CCF

May 12, 2025 • 11min
Why Some Traumatized People Think Focusing on Trauma Is Stupid
In this video, I respond to an angry comment on my YouTube channel from a woman annoyed that some people appear to accept others' bad behavior, justifying it as "trauma." Hear the comment, and my take on why some people with CPTSD take a hard-ass approach to healing that I call "The Cowboy Response." While she's not very kind, she's not wrong!
Do you have CPTSD? Take the QUIZ: FREE PDF Download: https://bit.ly/3X9MZ7J
🟢 Order My New Book, RE-REGULATED: https://bit.ly/4dtGVze
Take my FREE Course or Quizzes: https://bit.ly/40M2YeW
Enroll in my Courses or Membership: https://bit.ly/3HP5qcf
Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com
NEED ONLINE THERAPY? *BetterHelp* can connect you with a licensed, online therapist: https://betterhelp.com/CCF

May 11, 2025 • 1h 10min
How to Heal Your Wounded Soul After Trauma (4-Video Compilation)
Healing trauma is more than psychological. It's physical, it's practical -- and here's the part where trauma experts are curiously silent -- it's spiritual. Abuse and neglect are injuries to the spirit, and where we are spiritually injured, a vulnerability opens to further harm from destructive people, and even from our own self-defeating behaviors. This is how the battle between good and evil is waged in our own lives, and in this four-video compilation, I share four of my most popular videos teaching how you can work with the power of good through prayer, meditation, courage and the willingness to take courageous actions to transform the damage that was done to you.
Ten Signs Your Trauma Is Healing: FREE PDF Download: https://bit.ly/3raZghI
🟢 Order My New Book, RE-REGULATED: https://bit.ly/4dtGVze
Take my FREE Course or Quizzes: https://bit.ly/40M2YeW
Enroll in my Courses or Membership: https://bit.ly/3HP5qcf
Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com
NEED ONLINE THERAPY? *BetterHelp* can connect you with a licensed, online therapist: https://betterhelp.com/CCF

May 7, 2025 • 49min
Here's My Story on How I Learned to Help Others Heal Their Trauma Symptoms
I make it VERY clear that I'm not a therapist or doctor, but sometimes viewers ask why I didn't go the route of becoming a therapist, and how I learned to do what I do. In this video, I give the full story on how I recovered from my own Complex PTSD symptoms, and how teaching my method grew from a few people to millions of people over the course of 30 years. My focus is not on childhood or the origins of trauma (this is the special expertise of licensed clinicians). Rather, I focus on practical ways to regulate the nervous system, and principles and techniques to get your life together and NOT fall into the old self-defeating behaviors that used to drag you down.
Need Online Therapy? https://betterhelp.com/CCF
Try the FREE Daily Practice Course: FREE PDF Download: https://bit.ly/3Y4263I
🟢 Order My New Book, RE-REGULATED: https://bit.ly/4dtGVze
Take my FREE Course or Quizzes: https://bit.ly/40M2YeW
Enroll in my Courses or Membership: https://bit.ly/3HP5qcf
Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com
NEED ONLINE THERAPY? *BetterHelp* can connect you with a licensed, online therapist: https://betterhelp.com/CCF

May 5, 2025 • 17min
Try These Emergency Measures to Re-Regulate Anywhere
Everyone, not just traumatized people, gets dysregulated sometimes. And virtually everyone eventually re-regulates. But if you were traumatized at a young age, it can cause you to get dysregulated more easily than other people, and stay dysregulated longer. How can you do this ON THE SPOT? In this video, I teach you my expanded list of emergency measures to re-regulate. This is super helpful for people with CPTSD, or who need to "act normal" in a stressful situation.
Learn Quick Measures to Get Re-Regulated: FREE PDF Download: https://bit.ly/3YBrIVg
🟢 Order My New Book, RE-REGULATED: https://bit.ly/4dtGVze
Take my FREE Course or Quizzes: https://bit.ly/40M2YeW
Enroll in my Courses or Membership: https://bit.ly/3HP5qcf
Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com
NEED ONLINE THERAPY? *BetterHelp* can connect you with a licensed, online therapist: https://betterhelp.com/CCF

May 4, 2025 • 48min
You Hide That You Love Them, and Pretend You’re Their Friend
The podcast dives into the complexities of hiding true feelings for someone emotionally unavailable, especially for those with past traumas. Discussions highlight the damaging impact of unreciprocated emotional entanglements and the struggle between friendship and romance. A heartfelt listener's letter emphasizes the fears of risking a valued connection. The importance of honesty and establishing clear emotional boundaries takes center stage, guiding listeners toward self-awareness and healthier relationships.

May 3, 2025 • 22min
For Healing, Sane Action is More Powerful Than Sad Stories
The podcast delves into the impact of personal narratives on healing and aspirations. It emphasizes that dwelling on negative experiences can keep us stuck in a victim mentality. Listeners are encouraged to reclaim their stories and choose empowerment over despair. The power of self-agency is celebrated, showcasing how positive actions and community support can foster transformation. By shifting our mindset, we can break free from the weight of trauma and create meaningful change in our lives.

Apr 28, 2025 • 1h 10min
Join Me in a FREE Daily Practice Call
The Daily Practice is a set of two techniques -- a specific form of writing, followed by a simple meditation, that I was shown 31 years ago when I was in extreme distress after a series of traumas, and was barely able to function. I teach the techniques in a free online course (you can register for it and learn it in less than an hour -- the link is below), and I lead regular free Zoom calls for people who have learned the techniques to try them with me and others, and then I take questions. This video is a recorded call so you can see what it's like. If you'd like to try, it take the free course so you know the techniques (there's a PDF in the course that summarizes it and you can use this to follow along during the call. Once you've registered, we'll e-mail you a schedule and an invitation (also published on my website under the Events tab) to join the calls. It's a lovely community and we hope you'll give it a try.
Take the Free Daily Practice Course Here: https://bit.ly/3Y4263I
Sign up for Free Daily Practice Calls Here https://courses.crappychildhoodfairy.com/events/
🟢 Order My New Book, RE-REGULATED: https://bit.ly/4dtGVze
Take my FREE Course or Quizzes: https://bit.ly/40M2YeW
Enroll in my Courses or Membership: https://bit.ly/3HP5qcf
Send your questions & comments to: hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com
NEED ONLINE THERAPY? *BetterHelp* can connect you with a licensed, online therapist: https://betterhelp.com/CCF

Apr 27, 2025 • 1h 7min
How to Become Emotionally "Sober" (4-video compilation)
Explore the journey to emotional sobriety, revealing how childhood trauma can lead to emotional dysregulation. Learn to recognize signs of emotional 'intoxication' and discover practical strategies for managing intense emotions. The discussion emphasizes mindfulness and self-awareness as essential tools to navigate feelings like anger and confusion. Gain valuable insights into achieving clarity and making choices that allow for graceful conflict resolution.

Apr 25, 2025 • 49min
Self-Differentiation: Interview with Jerry Wise, Family Systems Expert
Join Jerry Wise, a Family Systems expert with a rich background in counseling, as he tackles the intriguing concept of self-differentiation. He unwraps the complexities of family dynamics, emphasizing how emotional enmeshment stifles personal growth and offers strategies to break free. Jerry discusses the significance of boundaries in familial relationships, the challenge of overcoming guilt, and the path to embracing one's authentic self. This conversation also touches on navigating external opinions and the importance of sharing knowledge in an imperfect yet meaningful way.