WISE WOMEN DIARIES

My body is leading me to true Trust of my body, something Western Medicine AND Holistic Medicine does not embody or teach. Our body doesn't start healing when we start taking a pill or supplement or see a chiropractor. It's always healing, but it doesn't always heal in a way that is pleasing to our mind!  Doctors mentioned that inspire me: Dr Cassie Huckaby, Dr Melissa Sell, and Dr Kelly Brogan

We have two selves within us: the short term self (ego) AND the long term self (soul). The short term self always wants us to do the fast, easy, lazy, instant gratification choice! We never FEEL like working out, or eating healthy, or forgiving someone. It takes wisdom to know whether what we FEEL is our short term self or our long term self.

Do we try to control God with our prayers- praying for specific outcomes, specific miracles? What if our view of miracles is so extremely limited? What if a miracle is a change of perspective? What if a miracle is a change from anger to peace? What if "bad" events like infertility IS the miracle that can allow someone to fully become an ally with their body and learn to fully trust it? 

Everything we want or desire is because of a perceived lack in our mind because we want a specific FEELING. We are always seeking and searching to get rid of feelings or to gain certain feelings. That's what rules our life! 

Most of us live with a victim mentality towards our BODY: cancer, viruses, candida, or toxic food "attack" our body, making us the victim. Then we need a savior, a rescuer: a healer, doctor, supplements, or pills. Are you ready to break free from this cycle?! 

-What is the difference between a hope vs expectation? -Can we still Trust God if we don't get anything we WANT and only what we NEED?!?!? 

After 11 years of not eating animal products..... my mind shifted. Changing your mind about something is a humbling process.

Some examples of daily ego stories: "I am failing as a parent because of XYZ," "Who am I to help people if I can't even figure out my own life," "I was so worthless because I got nothing done today," "My child is manipulating me," or "I can't wear this outfit on my date because my date will think XYZ of me......." We cannot stop the constant flow of false ego stories, but we can CHOOSE to believe them or not, and act from them, or not! THAT'S where our power is! 

The truth of life is that its constant change. Highs and lows. We ebb and flow from feeling our Light to experiencing our Darkness. I was faced with my Shadow Self recently.......here are my thoughts on that experience. 

A real and honest talk about what I notice about myself in my marriage. I quote my favorite book A Return To Love by Marriane Williamson: “The special love relationship is the ego's chief weapon for keeping you from Heaven on Earth." **Special note: As I listened to the episode, I definitely laughed at HOW narcissistic the ego is when I said: "when people only post their happiness and gratitude on Instagram, it doesnt help me. It brings me no value." Of course the ego takes the situation of someone posting on Instagram, to make it personal!!!! Oh man! haha! People do NOT have to post on Instagram to help me or my ego. BUT, there is an undeniable truth that when an Instagram influencer uses their platform to share their struggles and not just their pretty hair and outfits, our suffering seems to lessen a bit, or we simply don't feel alone