I don’t know how to love people

After enduring a long struggle with the illusion of control, a realization emerged about the challenges of loving others amidst their unpredictable behaviors. There is an acknowledgment of personal difficulties in navigating relationships without succumbing to panic or causing harm. This recognition extends to the internal conflict of existing peacefully within oneself while being aware of external chaos. The emotional toll of this struggle is palpable, leading to an admission of daily misery. In search of guidance and coping strategies, attending an Al-Anon meeting is identified as a step towards finding a way to coexist with these feelings and experiences.