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I had a list, a big fat giant list of everything I wanted in a man. But I didn't just have one list ... I had umpteen lists because I kept forgetting to add "this" or "that" and wanted to make sure the Universe got my order right!For years I was delivered what I wanted - the height, the success, the hunger for life, the physical chemistry. But for all those years, each person I'd meet and date never quite hit the sweet spot in my heart. With spiritual maturity and epic annoyance of not attracting in the real deal, I got rid of all the lists and started focusing on the essence of the relationship I desired. I imagined the energy of "us", the feel "us", the way I was around him, felt around him and imagined that I could be my full self with "him". This practice helped me open my mind, my heart, my eyes and senses to look beyond what I thought I wanted, and instead, acknowledge the essence of the person. As a result, my mind, my heart, my eyes and senses helped me acknowledge Steve as my person, someone who I friend-zoned for years because I had that darn list!kat.johnkatjohn.com.auSupport the show

Something is definitely shifting in me of late, and I'm letting it happen. Usually, I'd psychoanalyse it and try to make sense of it, but this time, I'm allowing the intelligence to do it's thing as I step aside.I can feel areas of my life that I have ignored or not placed as much importance on call me to lean into them, like family, adventure, and creating experiences and moments that I've previously deemed boring.My clients have been inspiring me so much with their lives and it's sparked conversations between Steve and I. We've talked about living in different parts of the world, to travelling alone and honouring our independence, to how we want to lead as parents and care-givers, and more. It's been enriching and I'm excited.kat.johnkatjohn.com.auSupport the show

My beautiful client and now friend, Maddie, experienced a miscarriage over twelve months ago after falling pregnant unexpectedly. Being a mum was not on her radar at that time in her life, so this threw her for six.Maddie went through a McFlurry of emotions and thoughts about what to do, what not to do and reassessed her life in a very rapid and short period of time. At her core, she knew that having this baby was not for her, but she felt guilt and shame around this. She thought of all the women finding it difficult to fall pregnant when they so badly wanted to, and how she was in a position of choice of whether to keep the baby, or not.After looking online with not success for groups, podcasts or forums of women who has been pregnant, didn't want the baby and miscarried before having an abortion, left Maddie feeling alone and unsure of what to do with all the feelings moving through her.In today's episode, Maddie shares her tough emotional journey with allowing herself to feel grief and how difficult it was for her to own her choice due to considering other womens' feelings before her own. Support the show

After my big fat healing last Sunday, it was time for me to put the lessons into practice. Once I had let out the big tears and journaled, I knew to create an end result to help me channel my focus into what matters ... my family. Every part of my ego wanted to revert back to the old pattern of being open for a day and then shutting up shop, aka my heart, for the rest of the week. But fk that - there's a new sheriff in town and that's my true authentic self.In today's episode I share the end result I created to help me focus on letting my heart stay open and what I put into practice to make the healing and epiphany real.kat.johnkatjohn.com.auSupport the show

Holy mother of Jesus, Mary and Joseph. The last four days have been some of the most intense, in your face healing that's taken place for some time. I have breakthroughs regularly, but this one was one of those almighty one's that cracked me open so I could see, hear, feel and be in new ways. Ways that were more in line with my truth, my authentic self - my essence. In these last four days our family has undergone very deep and radical healing. I woke up on my birthday plagued with the same thoughts about my family, not belonging and wishing for a different life. I woke sad, unhappy and anxious. This made me really fking mad and so over myself and my ego. I knew something had to change and today was the day!In today's episode I share the change that has taken place and why radical change was imminent and vital! kat.johnkatjohn.com.auSupport the show

It's been a long process to land in owning that I don't want to have children of my own. I've wrestled with this for some time, listening to others opinions, watching others with their children and thinking, "fk, am I missing something?" I've  been told me many, "oh but Kat, you'd be such a great Mum!" I look at my parents and think I'm robbing them of something wonderful, come on Kat, just do it! But to be radically honest, I just don't have that deep down feeling in my guts to have a child. And when this deep down feeling has spoken to me about other areas of my life, I know, "yep, this is for me!"  I feel pretty raw about sharing this and uncomfortable. But this is my truth and I'm becoming more confident in owning this, despite what my ego, or others, say.katjohn.com.aukat.johnSupport the show

When I don't live true or closely to my values, my inauthenticity radar starts ring-a-ding-dinging! Most of my life before the age of 25 years old was having no values or saying I had them but never being able to stick to them. People pleasing and seeking approval came first and as a result my self esteem, confidence and trust in self dwindled. No wonder I struggled to look at myself in the mirror. Over time, I started paying attention to what truly mattered to me, how I wanted to show up, how I could be proud of myself and like myself. As a result, my values started to come forth and challenge the way I was thinking, feeling and behaving. It's been one heck of a journey and to this day they still challenge me.In today's episode I share about my path to becoming vegan. I thought this was fitting as it's Be Kind To Animals Week this week and I wanted to share the time it took to finally land in a place where I am congruent with my value of Kindness with regards to animals. To be real, it's been a long road of 9 years to get here.   @kat.johnkatjohn.com.auSupport the show

Pam Ahern is a deadset super hero in my eyes. She's the creator of Edgars Mission here in Victoria, one of my most favourite places on Earth. A lifelong animal lover and activist, Pam always had her heart for the animals. After being a long-time champion equestrian, everything changed when a tiny piglet, the eminent Edgar Alan Pig, trotted into her life in 2003 and led her down a path she’d never imagined. She gave up her full-time paying job, hung up her riding boots, and dedicated her life to the protection of farmed animals. With Edgar firmly at its heart, Pam built the sanctuary, Edgars Mission from the ground up and set in motion outreach programs that would bring farmed animals out of the dark unknown and into public view. Pam is also the proud Australian Ambassador for World Animal Day and was a 2014 Victorian Local Hero Finalist in the Australian of the Year Awards. In the lead up to Be Kind To Animals Week, I have brought Pam on the podcast to talk all things kindness and how we humans with beating hearts and change animals' fate through our choices.Edgar’s Mission: https://www.edgarsmission.org.au/Edgar’s Mission Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/edgarsmission/Be Kind to Animals Week - Make the pledge: https://bekindtoanimalsweek.org.au/Support the show

I rate Cathy. She's an awesome human who took a huge leap of faith that was driven by her heart and values. Cathy couldn't comprehend that calves were being taken from their mother's and slaughtered so we could drink their mother's milk. I for one stand with her on this matter, big time!HOW NOW Dairy is the end result of her heart and vision. It's what happens when a music industry exec (that's Cathy) meets a third generation dairy farmer, and together they decide to challenge the globally accepted inhumane dairy industry practices and create an ethical dairy farm based on the simple premise of kindness.Third generation dairy farmer and renowned dairy nutritional consultant, Dr Les Sandles found himself becoming increasingly disenfranchised with the direction of the Australian dairy industry toward mega-dairies and in 2012, he and partner, Cathy Palmer, a passionate animal right activist who had built a career in the music industry, decided to stop complaining about the problem – and become part of the solution.The dairy is small, family owned, and fiercely independent. They're proud of their commitment to a more ethical approach to dairy production. Keep your ears and heart open in this one and see how much impact the value of kindness has when it's put into action. insta: hownowmilkweb: hownowmilk.com.auSupport the show

Been doing my darnedest to keep Captain Asshole at bay, however, she's making a regular appearance at the moment and it's been a real face ache. It's been exhausting coming back to my senses, getting out of them, coming back to then and so on, and I want to share here I manage myself during these times. It’s not always easy sharing when I’m not okay. I fear that people will think I’m unstable or not fit for the work that I do. I fear I’ll turn people off and fk up my business. But, I’m a firm believer of not posting about not being okay one day of the year and then showing a highlights reel every other day. That to me is inauthentic.I hope this serves you well. Love Kat xkatjohn.com.aukat.johnSupport the show