My beautiful client and now friend, Maddie, experienced a miscarriage over twelve months ago after falling pregnant unexpectedly. Being a mum was not on her radar at that time in her life, so this threw her for six.
Maddie went through a McFlurry of emotions and thoughts about what to do, what not to do and reassessed her life in a very rapid and short period of time. At her core, she knew that having this baby was not for her, but she felt guilt and shame around this. She thought of all the women finding it difficult to fall pregnant when they so badly wanted to, and how she was in a position of choice of whether to keep the baby, or not.
After looking online with not success for groups, podcasts or forums of women who has been pregnant, didn't want the baby and miscarried before having an abortion, left Maddie feeling alone and unsure of what to do with all the feelings moving through her.
In today's episode, Maddie shares her tough emotional journey with allowing herself to feel grief and how difficult it was for her to own her choice due to considering other womens' feelings before her own.