Becoming Me

Episode 111   Have you experienced feeling overwhelmed while making the interior journey? In this episode I propose three coping strategies for these difficult periods: the understanding that nothing real changes, realising that we are not the saviours of ourselves or the world, and being extra gentle and mindful towards ourselves. I also highlight the significance of recognising seasons and rhythms in our lives and the importance of self-care during challenging times. This episode is relevant for anyone seeking comfort and guidance when confronting overwhelming emotions during their personal journeys towards authenticity and openness.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:02:01) - The Importance of Conviction and Integration(00:07:20) - The Role of Trauma in Personal Growth(00:10:21) - Virtue and Emotion Regulation(00:11:51) - The Struggle of Living Out Convictions(00:13:58) - God's Love in Personal Transformation(00:25:58) - The Challenge of Living Out Conovictions in Relationships(00:26:59) - The Journey of Healing and Integration(00:29:52) - The Role of Discernment in the Interior Journey(00:43:20) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced being full of passion and conviction about the kind of life you want to live while realising that you don't have the power to make that conviction a reality in your life? Can you identify how a lack of integration may be the reason for that?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 110   Conviction alone can’t get you where you want or need to go. When we don’t do the work of interior integration we often end up hiding behind our convictions to feel safe instead of flourishing because we are rooted in a secure relationship with God and our Self.In this episode, I explore how personal integration is a crucial factor for living an authentic and balanced life. I share from my personal experience how having strong convictions doesn't necessarily lead to fruitful actions. Instead, it is the work of facing and accepting one's truths without fear, healing, and evolving through different stages of growth that helps us to become more open to divine grace and bear good fruit.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:02:01) - The Importance of Conviction and Integration(00:07:20) - The Role of Trauma in Personal Growth(00:10:21) - Virtue and Emotion Regulation(00:11:51) - The Struggle of Living Out Convictions(00:13:58) - God's Love in Personal Transformation(00:25:58) - The Challenge of Living Out Conovictions in Relationships(00:26:59) - The Journey of Healing and Integration(00:29:52) - The Role of Discernment in the Interior Journey(00:43:20) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced being full of passion and conviction about the kind of life you want to live while realising that you don't have the power to make that conviction a reality in your life? Can you identify how a lack of integration may be the reason for that?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 109   What's the difference that healing and integration makes we  get triggered back into old insecurities and anxieties? We often expect that healing will result in the absence of struggles but in reality, the journey involves self-awareness and fostering a sense of internal freedom with which we learn to manage our anxieties and insecurities. In this episode I recount a personal experience in which I was able to regain composure and freedom after encountering a stressful situation which had triggered me into being fearful and anxious. The integration journey slowly increases our ability to find the interior freedom to respond rather than just react, allowing us to be more wholly human even in our struggles.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:42) - Introduction(00:01:21) - The Healing Journey(00:02:58) - Experiencing Healing(00:04:04) - The Role of God in the Healing Journey(00:05:31) - The Struggle with Insecurities and Fears(00:08:53) - The Power of Self-Awareness in Healing(00:10:33) - Regaining Freedom through Healing(00:14:18) - The Role of Prayer and Discernment in Healing(00:17:22) - The Impact of Healing and Integration(00:19:30) - The Complexity & Courage of the Healing Journey(00:22:44) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTCan you identity with any part of the experience I shared in this episode about getting triggered and re-centering myself? What, in your experience, is an early sign you can pick up on that you are being triggered? What have you found useful as a first step to halt the slide into further anxiety or panic?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 108   In this episode, I delve into how understanding complex trauma has helped me in my spiritual life. I share how certain challenges I face, such as emotional regulation in stressful environments, couldn't be solved merely through deepening my spiritual life and prayer routine. By learning more about trauma, I discovered how coping mechanisms and defense mechanisms have shaped my personality and reactions. I share how learning about trauma has led me to see myself more wholly and helped me to be more compassionately curious and courageous in my interior integration journey.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:03:24 ) - New Season Updates(00:14:47) - Introduction(00:16:05) - The Connection Between Spiritual Journey and Trauma(00:18:54) - The Struggle With Spiritual Growth(00:20:37) - The Revelation Of A Shaky Foundation(00:23:56) - Understanding Complex Trauma(00:27:26) - The Impact of Trauma On The Nervous System(00:28:30) - The Integration of Body, Mind and Spirit(00:29:51) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhat emotional response do you have to this episode? Are you open to exploring how trauma affects your own spiritual journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 107   Do you feel overwhelmed in Advent and more tense than usual? Does that make you feel guilty all the more because it makes you feel like you're not "doing" Advent well?In this bonus episode, I share my personal experiences about the overwhelming feelings often associated with the Advent season, particularly for those on a trauma recovery journey. I talk about my struggles with complex trauma and how my wounds show up specifically during the Christian Advent season. This episode highlights the difficult balance between religious traditions, family scripts, and self-care. I emphasise the importance of pace, space, and grace especially if we are in a season of healing and share personal strategies for managing anxiety during this Advent season.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:21) - Introduction(00:02:13) - The Impact of Trauma on Advent Experience(00:03:58) - Recognizing Overwhelm and Trauma Responses(00:06:08) - The Role of Family and Faith Traditions(00:07:48) - The Challenge of Trauma Recovery During Advent(00:10:50) - The Importance of Agency and Choice in Trauma Recovery(00:13:12) - Managing Overwhelm: Pace, Space and Grace(00:21:27) - Personal Experiences and Reflections(00:32:24) - Final Thoughts(00:33:09) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you recognise any signs of overwhelm in your body during this Advent season? What scripts (societal / familial / religious) may be activated for you during this lead up to Christmas? Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 106     Have you ever felt that gut-wrenching feeling that something just isn't right in your life, but couldn't quite pinpoint the cause? That sense of dissonance might actually be the key to unlocking a more authentic and fulfilling life. In this heartfelt conversation, I examine the importance of authenticity and attunement, and how these two conflicting needs can cause us to lose touch with our inner compass. I share my own struggles with finding and maintaining integrity, and discuss how the discomfort of dissonance can be seen as a blessing rather than a burden. By recognizing and acknowledging this feeling in our lives, we can use it as an invitation to move towards greater self-awareness and self-love.This episode will leave you with a newfound appreciation for the value of dissonance in your life and the journey towards authenticity.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:06:08) Introduction(00:06:45) What is Dissonance?(00:11:47) Filling the Emptiness(00:15:14) Authenticity & Attachment Needs(00:17:00) Dissonance is a Blessing(00:18:34) My Experiences of Dissonance(00:30:10) Moving Towards Authenticity and Integrity(00:34:56) Are you Experiencing Dissonance?(00:36:37) ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAre you currently experiencing dissonance in your life? Sit with it, bring it to God. What is one way you can live more authentically?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 105           “What’s an interior integration coach and why are you one?”I often get asked how what I do is different from spiritual direction, counselling/therapy and life coaching.In this last episode from the 30 day challenge series I explain what interior integration specifically addresses and how the kind of coaching I do draws upon, differs from, complements and integrates other approaches to inner work.You may wish to check out A Leader’s Spirituality, an online course I teach that provides an experiential introduction to interior integration, and Clarity: Interior Integration Journey, an 8-month long small group coaching journey that facilitates pilgrims into clearer self-knowledge and deeper acceptance.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:44) - Introduction(00:03:33) - Interior Integration(00:11:47) - Why I Do What I Do(00:27:22) - Integration Coach VS Counselling & Spiritual Direction(00:32:10) - Making Sense of the Data(00:33:25) - Praxis (00:38:48) - Stringing the Clues Together(00:49:58) - Sharing my Story(01:11:06) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHas anything from today's Live resonated with you? Do you feel like you are tapping on the right resources for yourself, at this particular point in your journey? Remeber that each journey is unique and each call and mission is unrepeatable. Sit with this. Ponder this.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 104           Why is it that even when we KNOW what we need to do and when we even try to do “the right things” so few of us truly thrive and flourish?In this episode I share how getting things done (even when they are good things) without attunement to ourselves, to God and others will lead to us showing up more and more as “empty shells” and using one another as objects instead of loving one another into flourishing.I also talk about why slowing down, cherishing stillness, and taking care of ourselves are all essential for our thriving and for us to bring others into flourishing as well.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:20) - Introduction(00:02:14) - Attunement for Interior Integration(00:06:31) - Truth without Attunement(00:14:51) - Flourishing(00:19:27) - Presence and Attunement(00:24:20) - Spiritual Fruit(00:26:13) - Slowing Down(00:28:18) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHow well do you think you are attuned to yourself on a scale of 1 to 10? Do you have this same level of attunement with God and with those around you? Have you ever felt unseen or unheard? Perhaps you were were unable to attune or be present to someone in your life. Ponder this, write it down when you're ready.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 103           There is a secret shame and hidden pain for those of us whose community (family/church) value marriage and children when our marriage situation does not match that “ideal”.In this episode I responded to someone who asked how she could be authentic to herself, God and others in her struggle to make sense of her infertility. How can she still believe in the goodness of God and his love for her?I share my own journey in this area - a story I have only shared privately thus far because of my own fear of judgment in the past. But I am grateful now to be able to share my story of being married and childless as an offering. May this story find you if you needed to hear it.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:27) - Introduction(00:05:45) - Fertility and Childlessness(00:08:02) - Shame(00:16:47) - My Retreat Experience(00:26:28) - Freedom to Accept the Answer(00:31:54) - Ready in Acceptance(00:37:11) - Childlessness and our Interior Journey(00:41:29) - Authenticity(00:48:21) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAre you struggling with your life or family state? Do you perhaps know someone who is struggling? If we are not struggling, have we been gentle and kind to those around us, who may be struggling?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 102           "What real life difference does interior healing make in our day to day living?""What difference does healing make to the way we see, approach and experience the interior journey?""What does one need to do to begin healing?""And how does the soul feel when we move from a season of healing/deepening to a season of equipping and then sending?"The interior journey happens deep below the surface of what we do in our daily life but our interior state - how integrated or fragmented we are - has a huge impact on our emotional resilience, interior freedom and integrity. In this latest episode of my podcast I answer some listener questions about how making the interior journey of integration has impacted my life.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:31) - Introduction(00:02:08) - How has Healing Changed Me and My Interior Journey?(00:04:45) - More Authentic(00:08:35) - More Safe(00:09:47) - Hope(00:13:02) - Understanding the Multi-Dimensional Aspects of the Interior Journey(00:16:03) - More Patience in my Journey(00:18:35) - How to Start Healing(00:19:10) - Awareness(00:20:31) - Support(00:27:54) - Seasons of the Interior Journey(00:29:38) - Silence and Solitude(00:35:54) - Sending and Deepening(00:45:04) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAfter listening to my sharing on how inner healing has changed me and my interior journey, which part of my sharing resonates with you? Which season of the interior journey do you think you are in? What steps can you take to deepen your healing on this journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.