
I was a Teenage Fundamentalist. An Exvangelical podcast.
Brian and Troy used to be loyal Christian megachurch leaders. They’re not anymore. This podcast explores life in and after fundamentalism.
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Feb 9, 2024 • 35sec
Trailer: I was a Teenage Fundamentalist. Season 5
Brian and Troy used to be loyal Christian megachurch leaders. They’re not anymore. Thispodcast explores life after Fundamentalism.Shortlisted for the 2022 Australian Podcast Awards.Find out more at iwasateenagefundamentalist.com/ and https://linktr.ee/iwatf
---We're now on video on YouTube here.Want more? Check out our exclusive Patreon episodes here.Our blog is here.Join the conversation and connect with others here.The transcript of this episode is here.All our other links are here. Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone, and Recovering from Religion is here to help.

Jan 26, 2024 • 1h 25min
092 - Hitchhiking with Drunken Nuns with Emily John Garces
Emily John Garcés is an artist, poet, ex-missionary with YWAM, all-round creative enthusiast, and author of the memoir, Hitchhiking with Drunken Nuns. In this final episode of Season 4, we speak with Emily about her life as a YWAM missionary in Argentina and the Netherlands, and her unique perspective on the world we share. Despite her fundamentalist past, Emily has a positive view of the world and describes her use of art as a way of 'bridging what cannot be seen with the visible world'.
Emily's links:
Emily on Facebook
Hitchhiking with Drunken Nuns
The Quiet Woman
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Transcript of the episode is here.
Podcast links: https://linktr.ee/iwatf
Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone and Recovering from Religion is here to help. Please visit: https://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/
---We're now on video on YouTube here.Want more? Check out our exclusive Patreon episodes here.Our blog is here.Join the conversation and connect with others here.The transcript of this episode is here.All our other links are here. Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone, and Recovering from Religion is here to help.

Jan 19, 2024 • 1h 3min
091 - Sin Bravely with Maggie Rowe
Maggie Rowe is an author, writer, director, & producer. Her memoir, Sin Bravely: A Memoir of Spiritual Disobedience, was named to NPR's Best Books of 2017. In this episode, we speak to Maggie about her childhood where she describes being tormented by the fear of Hell and not being truly saved. At 19 years old she admitted herself to an 'evangelical psychiatric institution' where she found an unlikely ally who encouraged her to break free of the fears that held her back, and to go forth and 'sin bravely'.
Maggie's links:
Maggie Rowe's website
Sin Bravely: A Memoir of Spiritual Disobedience
Easy Street: A Story of Redemption from Myself
If this episode raised issues or concerns for you or someone near to you, please contact Lifeline Australia - 13 11 14 - Crisis Support.
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Transcript of the episode is here.
Podcast links: https://linktr.ee/iwatf
Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone and Recovering from Religion is here to help. Please visit: https://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/
---We're now on video on YouTube here.Want more? Check out our exclusive Patreon episodes here.Our blog is here.Join the conversation and connect with others here.The transcript of this episode is here.All our other links are here. Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone, and Recovering from Religion is here to help.

Jan 12, 2024 • 1h 7min
090 - Qanon and On with Van Badham
Van Badham is an Australian playwright, novelist, journalist and activist who writes regularly for the Guardian. In this episode we speak with Van about her 2021 book QAnon and On: A Short and Shocking History of Internet Conspiracy Cults in which she investigates who is behind the internet cult and how it often intertwines with the world of Evangelical/Fundamentalist Christianity. She also tells about her year 'undercover' at Hillsong in Sydney.
Van's links:
Van Badham - Wikipedia
QAnon and On
QAnon | The Guardian
The ‘prosperity doctrine’ and neoliberal Jesusing | The Guardian
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Transcript of the episode is here.
Podcast links: https://linktr.ee/iwatf
Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone and Recovering from Religion is here to help. Please visit: https://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/
---We're now on video on YouTube here.Want more? Check out our exclusive Patreon episodes here.Our blog is here.Join the conversation and connect with others here.The transcript of this episode is here.All our other links are here. Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone, and Recovering from Religion is here to help.

Oct 13, 2023 • 59min
089 - Divorcing Religion with Janice Selbie
We talk with Janice Selbie, a former fundamentalist Evangelical Christian of over 40 years and now a counsellor and specialist in the area of religious trauma. Janice shares her own story and the work she does with others in helping heal the pain caused by religious trauma. This is the first of a two-part episode we did with Janice. You can find part two on Janice's The Divorcing Religion Podcast.
In this episode, Janice referenced Steven Hassan's BITE Model of Authoritarian Control.
You can connect with Janice via these links:
Religious Trauma Syndrome Therapy | DivorcingReligion
The Divorcing Religion Podcast
Conference on Religious Trauma (CORT)
Janice on YouTube
Janice on Instagram
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Transcript of the episode is here.
Podcast links: https://linktr.ee/iwatf
Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone and Recovering from Religion is here to help. Please visit: https://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/
---We're now on video on YouTube here.Want more? Check out our exclusive Patreon episodes here.Our blog is here.Join the conversation and connect with others here.The transcript of this episode is here.All our other links are here. Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone, and Recovering from Religion is here to help.

Sep 29, 2023 • 1h 17min
088 - I was a Teenage Christian Nationalist with April Ajoy
April Ajoy, recovering conservative and viral TikToker, discusses her teenage Christian nationalist experience and deconstruction from fundamentalism. She shares her irreverent videos critiquing Evangelical culture, religious upbringing, fire tunnels, conflicting beliefs, societal expectations, and evolving faith. Also includes discussions on presidents, MTV influence, homosexuality, and her book deal and vibrator promotion.

Sep 15, 2023 • 1h 6min
087 - God Hates Divorce
Brian & Troy take a look at how divorce is presented in the New Testament and how the Church has handled it over the last 2000 years. Our hosts also reflect on their own experience and ask, do Jesus and the Bible really offer adequate guidance for the 21st century. Spoiler alert, no.
The resources suggested in this episode are:
Christian views on divorce - Wikipedia
A Theology of Divorce – Religion Online
Ep #69 - Troy Story II: Leaving My Marriage...and Church
Ep #75 - Brian Walks Away from his Marriage
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Transcript of the episode is here.
Podcast links: https://linktr.ee/iwatf
Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone and Recovering from Religion is here to help. Please visit: https://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/
---We're now on video on YouTube here.Want more? Check out our exclusive Patreon episodes here.Our blog is here.Join the conversation and connect with others here.The transcript of this episode is here.All our other links are here. Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone, and Recovering from Religion is here to help.

Sep 1, 2023 • 1h 15min
086 - I was a Teenage Preacher But Now I’m an Atheist with Dan Barker
Dan Barker served as an evangelical Christian preacher and composer for 19 years before leaving Christianity in 1984. He and his wife Annie Laurie Gaylor are the current co-presidents of the Freedom from Religion Foundation, and he is co-founder of The Clergy Project. In this fascinating chat, he shares his journey out of faith and why he identifies as an Atheist today.
You can connect with Dan and his work at:
Freethought Radio Podcast
Freedom From Religion Foundation - Freedom From Religion Foundation
The Clergy Project
Dan Barker: Books
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Transcript of the episode is here.
Podcast links: https://linktr.ee/iwatf
Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone and Recovering from Religion is here to help. Please visit: https://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/
---We're now on video on YouTube here.Want more? Check out our exclusive Patreon episodes here.Our blog is here.Join the conversation and connect with others here.The transcript of this episode is here.All our other links are here. Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone, and Recovering from Religion is here to help.

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Aug 18, 2023 • 1h 2min
084 - God is a Narcissist with Catherine Quiring
Catherine Quiring describes herself as a reformed people-pleaser, Exvangelical and an aspiring advocate for anti-oppressive spirituality. She is a licensed Mental Health Counsellor, and Self-Trust Coach. Catherine tells Brian and Troy why she believes the Evangelical god is a narcissist and that the symptoms experienced by those who have experienced covert narcissistic abuse are extremely similar to those experienced in high-control religious settings.
You can connect with Catherine via:
Her website: www.cqcounseling.com
Instagram: @catherinequiring
Facebook: @cqcounseling
The book she referenced in this episode was Breaking Their Will: Shedding Light on Religious Child Maltreatment : Heimlich, Janet
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Transcript of the episode is here.
Podcast links: https://linktr.ee/iwatf
Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone and Recovering from Religion is here to help. Please visit: https://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/
---We're now on video on YouTube here.Want more? Check out our exclusive Patreon episodes here.Our blog is here.Join the conversation and connect with others here.The transcript of this episode is here.All our other links are here. Doubting your beliefs? Have questions about changing or leaving your faith? You are not alone, and Recovering from Religion is here to help.

Aug 3, 2023 • 1h 14min
083 - Troy Deals with his Religious Trauma in Singapore (Our Stories Part 31)
Troy, dealing with religious trauma, continues his journey in Singapore and falls hard for a Chinese woman. He confronts his religious baggage and reflects on his experience with a deceptive progressive church. Troy leaves Singapore, gets married, and explores different spiritual avenues outside Christianity. Living in Southeast Asia exposes him to new cultures and conspiracy theories, leading to reflections on returning to Australia and the intersection of new age spirituality and far-right conspiracy cults.
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