
Before You Kill Yourself: a suicide prevention podcast.
When the pain feels unbearable and we feel alone in our suffering this podcast will sit with you. Let's rediscover our purpose, reduce our pain and regain our sense of belonging. Join comedian Leo Flowers M.A. as he shares his own journey through suicidality, interviews guests with lived experiences and discusses with experts on how to escape the flames and create a life worth living.
Latest episodes

Jun 16, 2025 • 9min
I See You: A Story About the Mailman and Me
In this episode, we explore the subtle, often missed moments of human connection—and what they reveal about our deeper needs.A brief exchange with a mailman sparks reflection on communication and misunderstandingThe physical sensation of a missed connection—what it tells usWhy we often choose efficiency or comfort over connectionHow being unseen can create deep emotional painThe power of pausing, noticing, and trying again—with empathyThrive With Leo Coaching: If you want to improve in the areas of health, wealth and/or relationships, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help:In the US: Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counseling. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.

Jun 9, 2025 • 14min
Storm and Story: The Difference Between Emotions and Feelings
Thrive With Leo Coaching: If you want to improve in the areas of health, wealth and/or relationships, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help:In the US: Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counseling. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.In this episode:Learn why emotions are like storms and feelings are the stories we tell about themDiscover how movement helps with emotions, while naming helps with feelingsExplore a simple 3-step tool for when you're in crisis:Name the feelingNotice the story you're tellingIdentify what you need right nowHear how this awareness can keep you grounded in your most overwhelming moments

Jun 2, 2025 • 22min
Talking to Feel: Pillow Talk, Couch Talk, and Kitchen Talk Reimagined
Dive into the emotional landscapes of conversation with insights on pillow talk, couch talk, and kitchen talk. Each setting offers a unique space for vulnerability, self-reflection, and dynamic discussions. Discover how to have meaningful dialogues with yourself and the importance of these settings in forming connections. Historical and literary examples enrich the conversation, making the exploration both entertaining and thought-provoking.

May 26, 2025 • 28min
Dissecting a Suicide Note - John Barnett
In today's episode we discuss: Explore the life and legacy of Boeing whistleblower John BarnettHear key excerpts from his powerful final noteAnalyze the emotions, thoughts, needs, and wants expressed in his writingDiscuss the impact of workplace retaliation on mental healthReflect on how systems meant to protect whistleblowers may fail themOffer resources for those struggling with suicidal thoughtsThrive With Leo Coaching: If you want to reduce your psychological pain, regain your purpose and forge your own path, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help:In the US: Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counseling. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.

May 19, 2025 • 44min
Jess Feliciano: From suicide attempts to loving myself
In this episode Jess Feliciano shares:What led to her first suicide attemptWhy breakups and heartache are so painfulWhy therapy is not enough to heal usHow to trust yourself to love againHow to set boundaries and communicate needsEfficacy of Dialectical Behavioral TherapyHow getting ice cream led to communityIf you want to reduce your psychological pain, regain your purpose and forge your own path, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help:In the US: Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counseling. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.

May 12, 2025 • 26min
Suicidality and why we isolate
We discuss ways we isolate and how to slowly emerge to re-engage with the world around us.

May 5, 2025 • 51min
Tony Stark: 3 suicide attempts
We discuss Tony Stark's (yes, that's his real name) three suicide attempts and his road to creating a life worth living.Thrive With Leo Coaching: If you want to improve in the areas of health, wealth and/or relationships, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help:In the US: Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counseling. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.

Apr 28, 2025 • 10min
Hope begins in the morning
In this episode, I explore suicide prevention not from the edge of crisis, but from the quiet places where meaning begins to erode—often, first thing in the morning. I share a personal reflection on how dopamine, novelty, and connection shape our sense of aliveness, and how a simple morning practice I call CALM—Check in, Activate, Learn, Make connection—can be a lifeline. This isn’t a conversation about fixing everything. It’s about staying. One morning at a time.Thrive With Leo Coaching: If you want to improve in the areas of health, wealth and/or relationships, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help:In the US: Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counseling. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.

Apr 21, 2025 • 24min
Effects of menopause and andropause on suicidal ideation
We discuss how menopause and andropause can impact our mental health. Thrive With Leo Coaching: If you want to improve in the areas of health, wealth and/or relationships, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help:In the US: Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counseling. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.

Apr 14, 2025 • 55min
WARBODY: A MARINE SNIPER AND THE HIDDEN VIOLENCE OF WARFARE
Authors Joshua Howe and Alexander Lemons join me to discuss:slow violence vs acute violencecoping with suicidalityThree Eights for scheduling your dayWhy healing is not recoveryHow to find meaning in the meaninglessToxic exposure, trauma and head injuriesWhat's your dream languageBUY WARBODY: https://a.co/d/cL9OeKYThrive With Leo Coaching: If you want to improve in the areas of health, wealth and/or relationships, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help.In the US:Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counselingThe National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:The International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.