

A Little Bit Culty
Sarah Edmondson & Anthony “Nippy” Ames
Think you might be in a cult? Want to know the signs? Join Sarah Edmondson and Anthony “Nippy” Ames to talk about things that are..a little bit culty. Or in their case: a whole bunch of culty. As whistleblowers documented in the critically-acclaimed HBO series “The Vow,” Sarah and Nippy have a lot to say about their experience, and burning questions to ask people with similar stories. They’re here to help people understand, heal from, and avoid abusive situations one little red flag at a time. Listen in as they share their stories, have frank and unscripted conversations with other survivors and cult experts, and do a deep dive on how devotion can turn to dysfunction.
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May 29, 2025 • 44min
Inside the Yellow Deli Cult: Tamara Mathieu on Life in Twelve Tribes (Part 2)
This episode is sponsored in part by Betterhelp. We’re back with Part 2 of our conversation with Tamara Mathieu—and if you thought Part 1 was wild, just wait. This time, Tammy walks us through what finally pushed her family to leave the Twelve Tribes, including a hollow diet, some serious double standards, and a clandestine late-night escape from their Florida commune. She shares what it’s like to rejoin the outside world after years of being told it was evil (spoiler: it’s weird), how Rite Aid and a bag of Hershey’s Kisses helped rewire her brain, and what healing looks like when you’re doing it for both yourself and your kids. We also talk about her book, All Who Believed, part memoir, part survival manual, for anyone trying to make sense of life after leaving a high-control group. If you missed Part 1, hit pause and go back. You’ll want the full story. Also… let it be known that: The views and opinions expressed on A Little Bit Culty do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast. Any content provided by our guests, bloggers, sponsors or authors are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything. Nobody’s mad at you, just don’t be a culty fuckwad. Check out our lovely sponsors Join ‘A Little Bit Culty’ on Patreon Get poppin’ fresh ALBC Swag Support the pod and smash this link Cult awareness and recovery resources Watch Sarah’s TEDTalk CREDITS: Executive Producers: Sarah Edmondson & Anthony Ames Production Partner: Amphibian.Media Co-Creator: Jess Tardy Writer: Kristen Reiter Associate producers: Amanda Zaremba and Matt Stroud of Amphibian.Media Audio production: Red Caiman Studios Theme Song: “Cultivated” by Jon Bryant co-written with Nygel Asselin See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

May 26, 2025 • 58min
Inside the Yellow Deli Cult: Tamara Mathieu on Life in Twelve Tribes (Part 1)
This episode is sponsored in part by Betterhelp. Twelve Tribes started as a Bible study in the 1970s. Today, it’s a nationwide network of high-control communities, often hiding in plain sight behind the homespun charm of Yellow Deli cafés. The group claims to offer a simpler, more spiritual life. But behind the braided bread and “family values” lies a world of control, corporal punishment, and deep-rooted misogyny. In Part 1 of our conversation with Tamara Mathieu, we hear what it’s like to live inside. Tammy spent 14 years in the Twelve Tribes, lured in by the promise of community and stability at a vulnerable time in her life. But what began as a warm welcome quickly turned into an authoritarian nightmare, especially for women and children. She shares how the group isolates members, enforces biblical patriarchy, and punishes dissent, and what it took to finally break free. To learn more about Tammy’s journey, check out her memoir All Who Believed, a raw and powerful account of survival and escape. Also… let it be known that: The views and opinions expressed on A Little Bit Culty do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast. Any content provided by our guests, bloggers, sponsors or authors are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything. Nobody’s mad at you, just don’t be a culty fuckwad. Check out our lovely sponsors Join ‘A Little Bit Culty’ on Patreon Get poppin’ fresh ALBC Swag Support the pod and smash this link Cult awareness and recovery resources Watch Sarah’s TEDTalk CREDITS: Executive Producers: Sarah Edmondson & Anthony Ames Production Partner: Amphibian.Media Co-Creator: Jess Tardy Writer: Kristen Reiter Associate producers: Amanda Zaremba and Matt Stroud of Amphibian.Media Audio production: Red Caiman Studios Theme Song: “Cultivated” by Jon Bryant co-written with Nygel Asselin See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

May 22, 2025 • 26min
Bonus Drop: Diddy, OneTaste, Weinstein & Listener Confessions
Welcome to the second in our new series of Bonus Thursday Drops—aka, your new favorite excuse to stay in on a weeknight. These episodes are an extra dose of A Little Bit Culty on the main feed every Thursday (Patreon subscribers get them a day early, because perks). Sometimes it’ll be a follow-up to a two-parter. Other times, like today, we’ll check in on the ever-expanding Cultiverse with a mix of headlines, hot takes, and your voicemails. In this episode, we’re serving up a “current-ish” roundup of three high-profile cases making waves right now, drawing parallels to our own culty past: Sean “Diddy” Combs and the disturbing sex trafficking allegations tied to coercion and blackmail OneTaste and its founder’s upcoming trial, with former members speaking out about manipulation and forced labor Harvey Weinstein’s retrial, dragging survivors back into the courtroom and into public scrutiny yet again These stories echo so many of the same power dynamics, abuse tactics, and systemic failures we’ve explored since our NXIVM days. We also answer some big listener questions, from “Would you have stayed in NXIVM if DOS never happened?” to “Did I just get kicked out of a culty improv troupe?” It’s a packed one. It's a timely one. And yes, there’s a man bun running club cult theory in the mix, too. Got thoughts? Keep the voicemails coming. We’re listening. Also… let it be known that: The views and opinions expressed on A Little Bit Culty do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast. Any content provided by our guests, bloggers, sponsors or authors are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything. Nobody’s mad at you, just don’t be a culty fuckwad. Check out our lovely sponsors Join ‘A Little Bit Culty’ on Patreon Get poppin’ fresh ALBC Swag Support the pod and smash this link Cult awareness and recovery resources Watch Sarah’s TEDTalk CREDITS: Executive Producers: Sarah Edmondson & Anthony Ames Production Partner: Amphibian.Media Co-Creator: Jess Tardy Writer: Kristen Reiter Associate producers: Amanda Zaremba and Matt Stroud of Amphibian.Media Audio production: Red Caiman Studios Theme Song: “Cultivated” by Jon Bryant co-written with Nygel Asselin See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

May 19, 2025 • 57min
Purity Culture & Sex Shame: Healing with the Sexvangelicals
Can religion ruin your sex life? This week on A Little Bit Culty, Sarah and Nippy are joined by psychotherapists and certified sex therapists Jeremiah Gibson and Julia Postema—co-hosts of the podcast Sexvangelicals: The Sex Education the Church Didn’t Want You to Have. Together, they explore how religion, especially purity culture and fundamentalist gender roles, can cause lasting damage to relationships and sexual well-being. From internalized shame to rigid scripts about gender and sex, Jeremiah and Julia explain how high-control religious environments affect intimacy long after someone leaves the faith. They also discuss the complexities of deconstructing religion as a couple, the importance of finding shared values, and why therapy can be a vital lifeline through it all. If you’re trying to untangle your beliefs from your bedroom, this conversation offers both validation and guidance. This one’s extra spicy, so listener discretion is advised. Resources mentioned in this episode: When Religion Hurts You by Dr. Laura Anderson available on her website. Sex, God, and the Conservative Church by Tina Schermer Sellers can be found on her website. Come As You Are and Come Together by Dr. Emily Nagoski is available on Amazon. To hear more from The Sexvangelicals, listen to their podcast, check out their blog, and visit their website. Also… let it be known that: The views and opinions expressed on A Little Bit Culty do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast. Any content provided by our guests, bloggers, sponsors or authors are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything. Nobody’s mad at you, just don’t be a culty fuckwad. Check out our lovely sponsors Join ‘A Little Bit Culty’ on Patreon Get poppin’ fresh ALBC Swag Support the pod and smash this link Cult awareness and recovery resources Watch Sarah’s TEDTalk CREDITS: Executive Producers: Sarah Edmondson & Anthony Ames Production Partner: Amphibian.Media Co-Creator: Jess Tardy Writer: Kristen Reiter Associate producers: Amanda Zaremba and Matt Stroud of Amphibian.Media Audio production: Red Caiman Studios Theme Song: “Cultivated” by Jon Bryant co-written with Nygel Asselin See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

May 15, 2025 • 45min
Polygamy, Incest & Reality TV: Amanda Rae Breaks the Silence (Part 2)
This episode is sponsored in part by Betterhelp. In Part 2 of our conversation with Amanda Rae, we pick up right where we left off—so if you haven’t heard Part 1 yet, go back and listen first. In this episode, Amanda shares the final breaking point that led her to leave the Kingston Clan, also known as The Order, and the harrowing events surrounding her dramatic escape at just 17. We dive into the emotional toll of indoctrination, the long process of deconstructing belief systems, and what it takes to rebuild an identity after growing up in a high-control religious group. Amanda speaks candidly about self-awareness, survivor’s guilt, family estrangement, and the dark side of reality TV—including her experience on Escaping Polygamy and the exploitation survivors faced behind the scenes. This episode is a raw, deeply moving reminder of the resilience it takes to not only survive—but to speak out. Amanda’s story continues to empower others seeking freedom, healing, and the courage to trust themselves. If you’re in a high-control group and looking for support, Holding Out Help offers free assistance to those trying to leave. And if you want to hear more from Amanda, including firsthand accounts from others who’ve left The Order, check out her YouTube channel: @TheAmandaRaeGrant. Trigger warning: This episode contains discussions of abuse, spiritual trauma, and emotional manipulation. Also… let it be known that: The views and opinions expressed on A Little Bit Culty do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast. Any content provided by our guests, bloggers, sponsors or authors are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything. Nobody’s mad at you, just don’t be a culty fuckwad. Check out our lovely sponsors Join ‘A Little Bit Culty’ on Patreon Get poppin’ fresh ALBC Swag Support the pod and smash this link Cult awareness and recovery resources Watch Sarah’s TEDTalk CREDITS: Executive Producers: Sarah Edmondson & Anthony Ames Production Partner: Amphibian.Media Co-Creator: Jess Tardy Writer: Kristen Reiter Associate producers: Amanda Zaremba and Matt Stroud of Amphibian.Media Audio production: Red Caiman Studios Theme Song: “Cultivated” by Jon Bryant co-written with Nygel Asselin See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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May 12, 2025 • 52min
Polygamy, Incest & Reality TV: Amanda Rae Breaks the Silence (Part 1)
Amanda Rae Grant, a survivor of the Kingston clan and advocate against extreme LDS practices, shares her gripping story. She reveals the eerie norms of growing up in a polygamous community, including the pressure to marry a cousin and multiple incestuous relationships within her family. Amanda sheds light on sinister cult tactics like isolation and arranged marriages. Her journey emphasizes the struggles of escaping such a life and the psychological impact it has on individuals seeking freedom and recovery. This first part sets the stage for a deeper exploration of cult dynamics.

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May 5, 2025 • 1h 6min
Goop, Teens, and Wellness Myths with Hayley Krischer
Hayley Krischer, a culture journalist and author of 'You Belong to Me', joins the conversation to dissect the powerful yet perilous wellness industry. They delve into how this unregulated sector exploits insecurities, particularly among women and teenage girls. Krischer shares insights on the cult-like tactics behind celebrity-endorsed products like Goop, shedding light on societal pressures and wellness myths. The discussion emphasizes the need for critical thinking to navigate the superficial trends that dominate social media and influence young minds.

Apr 28, 2025 • 53min
Hoodwinked by the Algorithm: Dr. Mara Einstein on Cult Tactics in Marketing (Part 2)
We’re back with Part 2 of our conversation with Dr. Mara Einstein, diving even deeper into the unsettling connections between cults, multi-level marketing (MLMs), higher education, and the digital world. In this episode, we unpack how MLMs use tactics like love bombing, upselling, and deception to recruit and retain members — and how these same strategies show up in places you might not expect, like college admissions and social media. Mara walks us through the financial and emotional tolls of higher education, the anxiety economy created by tech platforms, and the importance of protecting your data privacy in a world built to exploit it. With real-world examples and practical advice, this episode is packed with insights on how to stay critical, self-aware, and informed in the face of modern manipulation. To learn more about Dr. Einstein and her work, visit drmaraeinstein.com and check out her latest book Hoodwinked: How Marketers Use the Same Tactics as Cults Also… let it be known that: The views and opinions expressed on A Little Bit Culty do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast. Any content provided by our guests, bloggers, sponsors or authors are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything. Nobody’s mad at you, just don’t be a culty fuckwad. Check out our lovely sponsors Join ‘A Little Bit Culty’ on Patreon Get poppin’ fresh ALBC Swag Support the pod and smash this link Cult awareness and recovery resources Watch Sarah’s TEDTalk CREDITS: Executive Producers: Sarah Edmondson & Anthony Ames Production Partner: Amphibian.Media Writer & Co-Creator: Jess Tardy Associate producers: Amanda Zaremba and Matt Stroud of Amphibian.Media Audio production: Red Caiman Studios Theme Song: “Cultivated” by Jon Bryant co-written with Nygel Asselin See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Apr 21, 2025 • 1h 3min
Hoodwinked by the Algorithm: Dr. Mara Einstein on Cult Tactics in Marketing (Part 1)
Join Dr. Mara Einstein, a media critic and author, as she unveils the dark side of marketing tactics that mimic cult strategies. She explores how brands like Apple and Lululemon create a sense of community, and how influencer culture exploits our insecurities. Delve into how algorithms shape our beliefs, turning us into both consumers and products. Listen as Mara draws eerie parallels between loyalty programs and cult dynamics, and reveals why modern marketing thrives on emotional manipulation. This captivating discussion is just the beginning!

Apr 14, 2025 • 1h 4min
Blazing Eyes, Cult Ties, and New Age Vibes with Leah Sottile
Leah Sottile, a journalist and podcaster, dives deep into the murky waters of New Age cults in her conversation. She sheds light on the infamous Love Has Won cult and its eccentric leader, Amy Carlson, highlighting bizarre beliefs and the bizarre circumstances surrounding her death. Leah discusses the appeal of these ideologies to women and the patriarchal undercurrents within them. She also tackles the troubling rise of antisemitism in spiritual narratives, exposing the complex dynamics of power, devotion, and community within these movements.