Rian Anderson, a former missionary with a tumultuous journey through the Church, shares her experiences of mental anguish and PTSD after her mission. She recounts expectations of love and service met with oppression and isolation during COVID-19. Rian discusses the tension between family loyalty and church demands, especially as her family lost faith. She highlights the emotional strain caused by strict rules and the journey to reclaim her identity, ultimately discovering that true family love was what she had all along.