Dr. Martina Zangger, a counsellor, psychotherapist, and author of *Not My Shame*, shares her journey from a troubled childhood to a decade in the Rajneesh movement. She candidly discusses her experiences of trauma, joining the cult to seek healing, and the harsh realities of life in the Oregon ashram. Martina reveals the challenges she faced, including exploitation and the abrupt departure of the guru. Through her story, she highlights themes of survival, self-rediscovery, and the complexity of motherhood after enduring deep personal pain.