Man Within Podcast 1073 - From Suicide to Purpose: Silas St. John's Remarkable Transformation (Freedom Week, Pt 2)
Jan 3, 2026
Silas St. John, a peer support specialist and recovery testimony speaker, shares his inspiring journey from over a decade of pornography addiction and suicidal despair to finding purpose and freedom. He recounts his darkest moments, including a near-suicide, and the pivotal decision to seek help. Silas emphasizes the importance of addressing deeper emotional issues over mere behavior change, illustrating how peer support and accountability transformed his recovery. His story is a powerful reminder that real freedom begins when we stop fighting alone.
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Early Exposure And Current Mission
- Silas St. John struggled with pornography from age 11 and worked as a peer support specialist using his testimony to help others.
- He frames his role as serving others through the lessons learned in recovery.
Near Suicide And The Forgiveness Moment
- During college and after a breakup Silas reached a suicidal crisis while watching porn had destroyed his relationships and self-image.
- He loaded a gun but began forgiving people using the Deep Clean forgiveness template and put the gun down.
Commit Fully And Use A Spotter
- Commit fully to the recovery program and use all resources including calls and journaling to see real progress.
- Find a spotter and cultivate a deep connection for accountability and support.