Finding Salvation in Unexpected Places

Growing up in a Pentecostal church, the speaker found certainty, salvation, and community. However, as she started questioning the church's treatment of women and her own queer identity, she felt she had to leave, losing her sense of purpose and faith. Exploring alternative spiritual experiences, she shares her journey, including attending a sex party and engaging in BDSM. These experiences provided a sense of release, relief, and spiritual connection. Seeking further spiritual fulfillment, she considers the use of psychedelics and talks with a psychologist who studies mystical experiences induced by substances. In the end, she realizes that spirituality is a personal journey, encompassing various elements and the acceptance of one's whole self.