If you are saying “I can’t handle this. I can’t control this. I don’t have answers.” It sounds like you may be at the end of you. How do you get from there to admitting, “It’s okay that I’m not okay.” There’s a lot of work involved.
That “at the end of you” feeling coupled with ongoing recovery work towards sexual integrity or for saving your marriage can feel overwhelming.
We pray this episode comes alongside you. Listen in as we turn to Psalm 131 and find an invitation to go beyond the practical day-to-day work towards recovery and go beyond the end of you. Your Heavenly Father wants more than recovery for you. He also wants wholeness for you and with you.
Josh and Kit point out the invitation to be small in the midst of big anxiety and temptation. We need to be willing to understand some of the ways we haven’t been able to humble ourselves, then surrender to God and trust Him with these big things. This is deep, inner work - releasing your ability to fix it and your grip on a fixed outcome to a God you may not trust in this moment.
Your Heavenly Father wants more for you; becoming whole means going beyond existing, peace does not come from an outcome and when you find yourself at the end of you, if you’re heart is willing; you will find God.
Highlights:
At some point in time, in any given tragic situation in life we come to the end of ourselves. And we have to admit that.
Pain and our ability to feel pain is a gift from God because it alerts us that there is a problem.
What does it look like to be at the end of yourself? I can’t manage this. I can’t control this. I don’t have answers.
Homework:
Quiet yourself now. Invite God’s presence in & pray this invitation to be small.
Psalm 131
A song of ascents.
My heart is not proud, Lord,
my eyes are not haughty;
I do not concern myself with great matters
or things too wonderful for me.
But I have calmed and quieted myself,
I am like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child I am content.
Israel, put your hope in the Lord
both now and forevermore.
A Prayer: “Lord what do I need? How do I need to understand who I am and how I respond? How do I learn to trust you and believe you and your promises more than I want this circumstance or outcome?
Transcription:
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Original music by Shannon Smith. Audio engineering by Gabriel @ DelMar Sound Recording.
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