The freedom I’ve found in letting my darkness be there without needing it to go away or fixed in order for me to do epic shit, is beyond words.I can’t tell you how many YEARS I wasted trying to fix the dark so I could THEN play in my light. Yet every damn time I’d fix it, thinking BOOM, I’m free, it’d come back and I would feel utter despair and hopelessness.
I’d think I’m a screw up, an idiot, a loser, a nobody, a failure. When I realised my focus was in wasted territory I made it my mission to let my darkness be there, come up when it wanted to have its say and then leave it be. So now when I create something new or meet a new level of potential and I’m metaphorically shitting myself, I let myself feel excited, courageous and pumped AND anxious as all fk.
Prior to this I would hate that I felt all the “bad” feelings, punishing myself for thinking and feeling negative things. It’s been one of the toughest lessons to learn to accept my dark side and appreciate its presence, but it’s been worth the battle.
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