SPFPP 332: Letting Go of Fear of Success

I’m really feeling gratitude for all the support since dropping last week’s podcast episode. This episode, I share about Letting Go of fear from a personal experience. I value connection and recognize that I had some emotions that, while I’m teaching others how to Let Go, I myself hadn’t fully let go of myself. I’ve come to realize I do in fact have a fear of success. This came up over the weeks I didn’t record another podcast episode because I was actively pursuing funding for SPFPP. It is very likely that my own inner negative emotions of pride and fear really are in the way of me getting funding for SPFPP, and I believe PERHAPS that there’s a parallel there that folks can relate to in their own diagnosis. I’ll be speaking more about this process of Letting Go from the lens of a herpes diagnosis and doing my best to relate my own experiences throughout this process to you as well. This isn’t necessarily a series, but it’s very useful and I want to be sure that you get from the process at minimum what I’m getting out of this process surrendering my own negative emotions in order to let in the positive. That said, it was in this podcast that I acknowledged my own fear of success in detail being a fear of losing my connection with this community. I know that if I get funding and I’m able to exclusively support myself from that funding, it’s likely to have come from a place that is either out of alignment with my values, or I’ll have to step away from doing the very things I like to do through SPFPP, like we saw with the podcast going on an unannounced hiatus. I CAN sustain this organization off of donations alone and when the time comes, more aligned funding will present itself. I just had to acknowledge these emotional barriers to let go of my desire to be able to offer more to ya’ll with funding because you are now speaking loud and clear that THIS is the “more” ya’ll need, the podcast. And not only is that something I am capable of giving to you, but it also brings me peace because I feel connected through doing this as well. My intention here is to share the power of Letting Go in my life and selling you on applying it to your own. Please join our monthly newsletter and learn about the happenings of SPFPP as what’s aligning for me is more podcasting, less social media if I’m being honest. You can just visit the site and you’ll see a pop up asking you to subscribe. Joining the SPFPP membership is going to be your best bet and value to contribute monthly to the organization, access the recordings of the Yoga classes, live and virtual events coming up, support calls and groups, and the upcoming conference, so visit www.spfpp.org/membership and sign up today in order to access everything. I’m glad to be back and I feel a new found drive to offer a greater QUALITY of presence vs trying to increase the QUANTITY of it at the expense of the most impactful things. I’m also interviewing people again after May 23, so if you’d like to be a guest on the podcast, visit www.spfpp.org/podcast and fill in the guest intake form.