Traditional Celebrations Were Missing in Childhood

Growing up, celebrations like birthdays or holidays were notably absent in the speaker's childhood. The lack of traditional joyous moments, such as birthday parties or family gatherings, left the speaker feeling uncomfortable and overwhelmed in scenarios where celebrations were present. The absence of these typical festivities, like decorating for Christmas or having specific birthday meals, characterized the speaker's upbringing, leading to an unfamiliarity with the emotional aspects of celebrating.