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Where Should We Begin? with Esther Perel

Esther Calling - I Lost Him, But I Lost Myself Too

Feb 12, 2024
In this podcast, Esther Perel explores the emotional aftermath of losing a loved one to suicide. The speaker reflects on their late husband's struggles with imposter syndrome and their desire for a new relationship. They also discuss their experiences with caregiving and the physical sensations associated with longing for connection. The chapter concludes with a caller seeking advice on finding love again after a difficult breakup.
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Quick takeaways

  • Reflecting on a past relationship, the speaker aims to reframe her memories and prioritize self-care in future relationships.
  • The speaker cherishes moments of connection and playfulness in her marriage, seeking to carry these positive memories into future relationships.

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The Weight of Caretaking

The speaker reflects on her 25-year marriage, which ended tragically with her husband's suicide. She questions what she may have missed and normalized in their relationship. She wonders if she could have done something to save herself from the traumatic experience. She contemplates the imbalance in their relationship, where she became the primary caregiver and emotional support. Despite the challenges, she still cherishes the moments of affection and tenderness they shared. Now, she desires to move forward and find love again, but without losing herself and her playful, caring nature.

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