Heidi is the scapegoat for her family. Her father was highly controlling, watching her every move, waiting to erupt at minimal slights of ever-changing and unpredictable goalposts. These events set the stage for a life of low self-esteem, confidence, and worth.

It's a story of enmeshment, minimizing, denying, blame, putdowns, rage, sexual abuse, enabling, suicidal ideation, depression, bullying, intergenerational trauma, fragmented identity, loneliness, CPTSD, and PTSD.

**This episode is dedicated to the 12 people who helped Heidi get her Phd.

*** CONTENT WARNING - We discuss Sexual Abuse, Child Hood Physical Abuse, and Suicidal Ideation. ***

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