Bringing love into dark places: Reflections on our first week on OnlyFans

Last week, Dawn and I opened up a side of our relationship we’ve kept private for years—and the response was overwhelming. After announcing Dawn’s OnlyFans and that we were sharing the intimate side of our dynamic publicly for those who wanted to witness it, we received incredible encouragement, some honest questions, and a little judgment. 

In this episode, I reflect on what this experience has taught me about risk, freedom, love, and masculinity.

I share the first email we received just two minutes after our announcement, why 98% of the feedback was positive, and what the 2% of negative responses reveal about illusion, expectation, and control. We’ll talk about:

 

 • Why listening to the body’s wisdom is the foundation of every big decision 

 • The question that sparked a conversation about masculinity and freedom 

• Why defending Dawn's freedom isn’t passive—it’s the deepest form of devotion  
• What men had to say about this decision that might surprise you 

 • Why almost 80% of our initial OnlyFans subscribers were women—and what that means 

 • How projection, judgment, and control destroy intimacy 

 

Whether you agree with our choices or not, this episode isn’t about convincing you. It’s about showing what’s possible when you stop living for approval and start living in truth.

 

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Links & Mentions: 

 • Listen to last week’s episode with Dawn for the full backstory

 • Connect with us on Instagram @_infinitedevotion

 • See inside the spicy side of our D/s dynamic at https://dawnofdesire.net

 • Explore resources for building deeper intimacy and freedom in your relationship at  https://infinitedevotion.com