Healing From Rejection, Racism, And Betrayal (with Roy Kim)
Oct 16, 2023
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Roy Kim, a licensed marriage and family therapist, shares his journey from rejection to pornography and his struggle with porn as a pastor and male betrayed partner. He discusses the impact of racism and the lack of resources for men who have been cheated on. Roy also explores finding identity and security in relationships and the liberating power of freedom from porn.
Rejection and internalized racism fueled Roy Kim's addiction to pornography as a coping mechanism.
Roy Kim emphasizes the importance of honesty, self-compassion, and finding a supportive community in the healing process of addiction and betrayal.
Deep dives
Roy Kim's Journey of Addiction and Betrayal
Roy Kim, a former pastor and certified sex addiction therapist, shares his personal story of developing an attachment to porn as a coping mechanism. Growing up Korean American, he experienced a sense of otherness and internalized racism, leading to rejection and self-hatred. He candidly discusses his addiction and being betrayed by his wife. Roy's unique therapy approach includes using Lego figures to bring his story to life. He highlights the importance of honesty, self-compassion, and finding a supportive community in the healing process.
Healing and Reframing Identity
Roy Kim reflects on how his identity became wrapped up in finding a dream girl. He confesses the scarcity mentality that led to overlooking opportunities for emotional growth in his relationship. When his wife's emotional spiral led to an affair, it confirmed his deep-seated fears and self-contempt. Roy stresses the need for healing not only in sobriety but also in reframing identity and understanding one's worth as a child of God.
Overcoming Addiction and Discovering Grace
Roy Kim powerfully depicts his attachment to porn using Lego figures. He emphasizes the importance of honest self-reflection and turning towards help, rather than trying to clean up one's act before seeking God's grace. Roy describes his healing journey as a partnership with Jesus, acknowledging the constant temptation while actively pursuing sanctification. He also encourages others to seek support in safe communities and understand the impact of past trauma on addiction.
Betrayal, Pastoring, and Finding Healing
Roy Kim reveals the challenges of being a betrayed partner and a pastor struggling with addiction. He shares the shame and secrecy surrounding his behaviors during his pastoral duties and the difficult journey of healing. Roy highlights the need for honesty, self-compassion, and vulnerability in addressing the pain caused by betrayal and addiction. He also encourages pastors to seek support and create safe spaces to work through their struggles.
Have you ever been rejected? Roy Kim explains how rejection and internalized racism drove him to pornography. He also opens up about what it's like to struggle with with porn as a pastor—and as a male betrayed partner. Roy offers real hope through the power of compassion and community.
Roy Kim, M.Div, CSAT, is a licensed marriage and family therapist in Southern California focusing on sexual addictions and betrayal trauma. He is a former pastor and enjoys partnering with pastors to educate churches about sexual addiction and betrayal trauma. Roy facilitates groups for sexual addiction, and betrayed partners, and facilitates specialized groups for pastors with sexual addiction. He also hosts the SA Speakeasy Podcast, which centers around sexual addiction conversations.