The Sadness of Being a Boyfriend

I don't like to look at pictures of him because I just want to avoid going, it's too raw. And also when I see a picture of him, it doesn't sum up the sense of how it felt to be his friend. His mum and I have had quite long phone chats. He was very unique. Annoyingly so. But most funny people you know are not doing it for a living at all. That's why they're sort of still happy.