I'm Not Going to Censor Anything

When i first met jon than two thousandd twoo two thousand and three, i was really, really physically active. Within two years of living together, i had gone into an illness and spiral down. It's a part of a hypermobility, a genetic disorder i have. So i could barely walk up an incline. I couldn't swim nothing. And whenever jonathan would try to help, i think of it like fixing. And so i got really blaming and irritable about that. And of course, i was blaming myself. But after realising this is the suffering of separation,  I've much recovered. When i tell this, im want, i