What Was the Moment for You That Made a Click?

I wanted to be numbed out on real serious drugs, 24 hours a day. I had this interaction with a guy who basically held a mirror up to my face and said, look at yourself. And in doing that, I suddenly started thinking about who was my girlfriend at the time. So I was actively being a non participant in her life... It's just no way to live. There's too much pain and discomfort.