Are You Trying Hard and It Didn't Work?

Sometimes we rush into action without pausing first to gain that awareness about what's driving those actions. To start by being aware of why we're doing the things we're doing, instead of just rushing to try to change them. But as many steps as that involves, it still ends up being less exhausting then the just kind of repetative worry and frustration of an unsolved problem. The feeling aand for me, it's this life, you know, i tried hard and it didn't work. That just disappointment in myself that hurts.