Does It Make You Feel Silly to Use Irrational Words?

Senario: I think the thing for me is, i will obsess over it. For example, when i go on long flights,. i won't, i cannot sleep at all, just because  for the reason that i'm afraid if i go to sleep, i'm an awake up to everybody around me screaming. If i let my personal guard down, that's just what my thought, my brain goes, if i let mypersonal guard down, then something's going to happen. And so, like, maybe speaking irrational words like, makes your thoughts sort of more real. and like, the silliness increases. Doctor k: Do you know whether there's some kind of like