"I've learned that if i depend on other people, i often feel disappointed," she writes. "If i depend on myself and i'm hyperin dent, i never have to feel the shame or weakness of receiving someone's help" She says in those times where she doesn't ask for help, it hurts. But evet, the pain goes away. Like, i'm resilient. I'm a survivor. I've thrived. I've become self reflective. I love the phrase, not rely on a damned soul. Here's the thing, i can do it, but it sucks.