The Importance of Saving Yourself

"I had to make a choice in that moment you could say quite literally to save myself and even saying that statement kind of makes me feel like oh like almost guilty because fast forward I'm the one alive now Jake is the one physically dead now though I share that," she says. "Even in those last final months of his life I gave him money I fell for every moment that he you know made up some elaborate story." She continues: "There was so much pain so much shame so much belittling like how could you be so stupid look at what you do for a living?"