For me when I was that age really up until probably my mid 30s um I didn't see discipline or confidence as something that you could acquire. I saw it as something that people had or didn't have and I thought I just didn't have it the way other people had it. So over the next 15 years I read all these books about how to become mentally tough so I became obsessed with it. Then James Lawrence the iron cowboy said something to me that just made it all click together at one time and I'm like "I fucking got it" It took me a long time to learn what I could do but now we are less party minded because of 75 hard, he says.