Was It a Conscious Decision That You Made?

For so long i didt know really how to feel, like i knew how to feel. But i wouldn't really allow myself to feel because i had internalized all these things about masculinity. When george floyd got murdered like that, that just, ike, cracked my heart wide open. And then i started connecting that dot, like, oh, my body feel like when my body is triggering a feeling, listen to it. You know, for so long i ignored it. And so now i'm more aware what's like. If i feel something, i'm just like, ok, what are you trying to tell me?"