How to Deal With Complex Grief

I was wondering if you could speak to complex grief in one of your pod casts, is surewould appreciate any information and insight you can offer. I later learned what i needed was counselling for complex grief, which i did end up finding guilty that i felt relief after my husband's death. Part of me still loved him, though it was so difficult to process grief like that. The fact of the matter is, we love people that do harmful things to us sometimes. That person is toxic, and you love parts of them. You love how they make you feel when they do the right thing and do the good thing, and you hate how they made you feel whenthey do the bad thing