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How Did You Get Your First Cocaine?
I was experiencing an extreme amount of shame from childhood, and when i drank the alcohol at age ten, it was like instant relief. What i can remember is that it took me away from feeling internal pain. So i no longer felt like i didn't belong. It was like the sensation of everything's going to be great. By my twenties, i had developed an addiction to cocane.