Back then, you were very much to speak to chris marcus. Chris marcus was a pirate. He had the hunger of the wolf in him. And and he was always all that you are, but he didn't see it. I diddin't. Now i'm with an absolute goddess, and i love you so much, baby. It's my, my, from hereforward, life's work to allow myself to feel every bit of the infinite love that you have to offer.
One of my best podcasts of all time, this emotional conversation that’s been 16 years in the making, is with my wife Vylana Marcus and former fiance / best friend Caitlyn Howe. We sit down with a bottle of whiskey and let it all out. We each take turns sharing our darkest hours and deepest shadows, with a lot of tears and a lot of laughs. We discuss my devastating 6 days in a darkness retreat, my ongoing relationship with self-love, the impetus of my name change from Chris to Aubrey Marcus, and the erotic aspect of harming oneself, to name a few themes. But perhaps most powerfully, Vylana and Caitlyn share their own shocking and emotional challenges in their relationship to the masculine.