How Do You Love Yourself?

It sounds to me that you were trying to receive love from her and you were doing everything in your power to get it, but you weren't or you did get it in spurts. Maybe you felt like you maybe didn't deserve love because you never got enough of it as a child. There's so much to dig into there and it's important to get to the heart of that inside yourself. Before you get into a reconciliation with her or a relationship with somebody else, you really need to explore that in yourself,. reflect on it and make sure that you're doing the healing that you need to do.