Do You Really Care About the Feelings of Other People?

You want all those people to validate your noble self image. You want to be approved of, and you want to be loved. That's basically what you want. And because of this, you are working very hard to maintain this image. Any evidence that is contradicting the self image really disturbs you. It sends you into overdrive to work extra hard to correct that. The problem is that being apathetic can be very nice in your case, for you, it's a trap. It's a huge, huge trap that you are drowning in like quicksand. Although it's nice to care about other people, nice to do good things for them, to be ampathetic