When i relax, i mean, nothing's happened, i don't think. Is there anything? And so now we got to be careful, because i suspect that so we're running up against an enemy here, which is your judgment, that's going to make it hard for you to speak right? So has something happened to you that feels superrational, where you let your guard down and something catastrophic happened to you as a result? I can't think ofike, anything in particular, ok, where that was a case? Can you tell me, ou'll go ahead goi know you goa. Can you just tell us a little bit about your up bringing? Yes,