i've been with both of youa a couple of weeks, and reckoning all this. I have the highest admiration for that person, in the deep and deep, deep brotherhood and love with that person. And her was, you know, it ultimately wasn't what was ordained from spirit to be the forever thing. But i just,. i just have this deep, felt sense that somebody else can do the same when it's the right person, and it will be the thing that will happen.
One of my best podcasts of all time, this emotional conversation that’s been 16 years in the making, is with my wife Vylana Marcus and former fiance / best friend Caitlyn Howe. We sit down with a bottle of whiskey and let it all out. We each take turns sharing our darkest hours and deepest shadows, with a lot of tears and a lot of laughs. We discuss my devastating 6 days in a darkness retreat, my ongoing relationship with self-love, the impetus of my name change from Chris to Aubrey Marcus, and the erotic aspect of harming oneself, to name a few themes. But perhaps most powerfully, Vylana and Caitlyn share their own shocking and emotional challenges in their relationship to the masculine.