When you talk about memory recall, which is interesting, I can't help but see parallels between him and Magnus Carlson, who's a chess player. The thing he seems to hate the most is imperfection against people he knows are worse than him. He hates competing against people that are still from the perspective of everyone else, what are called super gram master so top three in the world. But he knows he's much better than them and the anxiety of being not perfect against those people was why he stepped away. No, just for him, at least the language he uses is just not fun.