What if I Resist Feeling That I Wish He Was Dead?

We stuff thoughts and emotions back down inside of us, repressing them. We don't allow ourselves to feel certain things or think certain things. What we've repressed comes out in our life in a lot of destructive ways. If you're carrying this stuff around because you haven't expressed it, because you've resisted expressing it, this is what can happen. You can end up in some sort of complicated grief that you can't end because you're still grieving in some way. Visualizing the person inside your mind allows you to say things that you normally wouldn't say.