i started crying before i even drank. I had so much resentment towards life and you can feel it in my energy for many, many years. There could be a trilogy of movies about the things that i've been through - realy onunt was betray chronicles of fuckery times a million. It's like figed sneering at i don't even know. But yes, it was the right thing. And am i went to drink, and this was with eldragon,. if any of you heard the podcast in i walk up there, and he looks up at me and and he could tell i was really off. He asked me what was wrongnd, and i told him,
One of my best podcasts of all time, this emotional conversation that’s been 16 years in the making, is with my wife Vylana Marcus and former fiance / best friend Caitlyn Howe. We sit down with a bottle of whiskey and let it all out. We each take turns sharing our darkest hours and deepest shadows, with a lot of tears and a lot of laughs. We discuss my devastating 6 days in a darkness retreat, my ongoing relationship with self-love, the impetus of my name change from Chris to Aubrey Marcus, and the erotic aspect of harming oneself, to name a few themes. But perhaps most powerfully, Vylana and Caitlyn share their own shocking and emotional challenges in their relationship to the masculine.