I'm So Close to It. I Am. I Am. I've Lost What We Have to Let Me Live

I'm so close to it. I am. Oh, what does it hurt as bad as it does to lose what we have to let me live? No one will be gone We don't dare see This is our team Please forgive me  forgive me for all the things I've done in my life that haven't been forgiven by anyone but myself. If you'd like too much Do you feel all we've done to lock in the mirror? You'll never get us out of this mess if you just keep pulling us down"