Yeah,

and I would check in on occasion, and it was the same people, and I thought, okay, been there, done that. I've gotten everything I could get out of it, and I'm moving on to the chats and the games. Richard, let's be clear that

repetition is essential. When you're grieving, any emotional processing is really done by repetition. Our minds, our brain gets things really quickly. Our emotions take a long time to catch up to the understanding that our mind has. We can wrap our mind around the fact that someone's gone much more quickly than we can our feelings and repetition is necessary. It's part of the grieving process because you're feeling it again, but maybe slightly differently this time. It's challenging. It's difficult because it's sad and it's painful. But by going over it again and again, you are getting your body and your mind and your heart, especially adapted to a new reality that switch doesn't happen on a time. You really have to massage it in and repeat it. If you've ever had a massage, but strokes are repeated numerous times. You don't just do it once because even the muscle needs the repetition to loosen up and to be able to unclench.

Yeah, and perhaps these other members of the group, they understood that,

and I didn't. I thought they were rehashing in my mind, and I understand what you're saying.

That's what your girlfriend didn't understand. She could not understand why you were still talking about Michelle, even though you had just lost her.