Ike: What was that personal anchor for you, the feeling of is there a prolonged period in your life where you felt like you were waking up to something in you that was pushing you in a certain direction? Ike: The big shock for me, i think, was when i was eiteen, else about maybe 16 or seventye 15, 16, a ond day or so. I would describe it as being struck by lightning,  like being struck by lightening and going through the entire nervous system. And then trying to figure out what was wrong with my self-esteem because people had ostracized me from social circles.